anticipated

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Tae immediately went behind jungkook, sifting. He works his four paws but who he is kidding... no one can beat a true blood. His blood runs through his whole body, burning as he sees jungkooks wolf crying. His venus pooped out as he tries his best to run even tho his lags were telling him to collapse right there and then. He runs and runs not paying attention to his aching legs. His lungs burn through as his breathing went abnormal. He was in pain... pure pain.

The alpha went inside the bushes and the woods and tae felt his heart sink when he lost the track of the true blood. No no nooooo he runs here and there in the same place. His brain not functioning. He wants to see jungkook no matter what. He is scared... Scared the alpha will might do something to himself.

He cried, shouted loudly at particularly nothing. His insides were melting with the fire. His eyes get drier as he runs different ways but found nothing. His legs wobbled as he fell... Hard. His face directly came into contact with the ground. He sifts into his human form... Crying, screaming, and begging for forgiveness. His voice echoed through back making him want to bury himself alive inside the soil beneath it.

His naked self meant nothing to him, his tears mixing with the blood from his forehead. Mud burning his woods. But his insides were hurting more. His physical condition made no sense. His existence made no sense without... Jungkook.

He needs jungkook in his life, besides him, breathing alive.

"your fault, it's your fucking fault!!!!!"
Tae cried harder, yelling at the shadow he sees beneath as he kicked it falling on the ground.
"YOUR FUCKING FAULT"

he put his palms over his face, pressing his woods. This is a sweet pain. A pain that he wants to feel besides the guilt.

He wants to see jungkook, right now... Breathing and without any scratches. Or he will go crazy.
He knows now what true blood means to him. His existence makes him want to live through his days.

He loves him.

The realization makes him additionally painful. His body begs him to pass out, let his libs rest. But he sifts again. His white wolf is muddy... Blood-dropping, eyes are puffy. His legs tremble as he stands up.

So pathetic... Love is so pathetic.

Only love can hurt like this. The hurt that makes you want to kill yourself.

The only thing taehyung can do is check into the last place he thinks he will be hiding behind. He made his libs work as he runs for his life. The life that he made miserable.

Taes wolf stops in his tracks in the middle of the woods. In front of a small shed that looked aged. He looked through the gates and find them broken. Indeed a True blood deed. Tae doesn't know how and why he remembers the track of a place he has never been in his life but if the alpha is inside then he is delighted with his thoughts.

Tae made his body work again. His wolf particularly sweating blood. Trembling, he made his way inside the hut. Hoping to see the same big black wolf inside. If he is not here tae is sure he is going to die right here.

The instant tae went inside he made his way to a room where he was hearing some shuffling sounds. He sees jungkook crunched down on the wooden ground, only in his pants. His back facing him as he heard more sniffles as his body trembled.

Tae sees a pile of clothes shattered around the place and picks up a white shirt and put it over his trembling frame. He cried silently as he walked closer to jungkook and put his shivering hand over his shoulder.

The moment tae looked at jungkook his whole world collapsed. Jung kooks eyes were blood red., his face drenched in tears, his nose red, mouth wide open. Tae sees a familiar sky-blue shirt in jungkooks hand and tae felt like dying.

"what are you doing here..... WHY ARE YOU HERE!!!!!!!!"
jungkook screamed as he stand up. Wiping his eyes with the back of his hands, taes shirt clutched in his right arm.
"Yeah, you want me to see suffer right.....SEE, FINALLY, I AM WHOLLY BROKEN. NO HOPE NO NOTHING. YOU WANTED TO SEE ME IN PAIN RIGHT!!!!!

SEE I AM DEAD, I AM DEAD TAE... on no my bad.....TAEHYUNG. Right, why would you let me call that? YOU KILLED ME TAE, YOU SUCCESSFULLY BROKE MY HEART TO PIECES. IT'S NOT EVEN HERE TAEHYUNG"
Jungkook said as he forcefully slapped his hand over his chest,
" I AM A MAN LIVING WITHOUT A HEART. YOU WANTED ME TO BE MISERABLE THAN LOOK ... Look at me I FUCKING SAID LOOK AT ME"

Jungkook forcefully made tae look at him,
" do you see these eyes, there is no life inside them, no hope, no longing. But you know what taehyung? I am so pathetic. I AM SO PATHETIC TO STILL LOVE YOU."

He punched the nearest wall. Taehyung looked at him with eyes tearing nonstop. Emotions, pain, regret. Tae doesn't understand the feelings running inside.

Every word... Every single word cut right through taehyungs soul. Bleeding, and tearing, taehyungs soul was in distress.

"you know what taehyung? I can't even die. If I could I would have done it a lot longer. I know I did mistakes, I know I am an emotional fool, and I asked too much. But you know what... I was just in love.

Every time I asked you to stay, every time I asked for your support... your hand to hold,
I WAS JUST SO DEEP IN LOVE "

" I was just a person who knew nothing more than loving you taehyung. I wanted you beside me even in my worst. I was confused, broken, scared... SCARED TO LOSE YOU."

"Love is torture, LOVING YOU IS JUST TORTURE. "

Tears of pain slipped through his eyes as he fell to the ground. His legs can't stand him anymore.
He chuckled dryly. He let jungkook speak. He wanted to hear how bad he is, and how much he hurt the person who has done nothing but love him.

Life gives you one chance to reverse your mistakes but taehyung... He got thousands of them. People like him don't deserve jungkook. A person so pure and madly in love.

No one can find a man like jungkook... A man who gulps all the embarrassment, all the rejection, all the pain with a smile. He looked at his side and find a shiny object right underneath the bed and he smiled.

'let's end both of our misery'