That Feeling [COMPLETED]

Chapter 29

Chapter 29

Magaan ang aking dibdib na bumaba sa entablado kasama ang banda. I'm happy with how the crowd smiled at me when I was performing.

Kinikilig pa rin ako hanggang ngayon.

Sinalubong kami ng bouncers nang pababa kami kasi naglalapitan ang mga tao sa'min. The guys decided to hang out on the second floor in their room.

Nahihirapan kaming umakyat sa hagdan dahil may mga lumalapit para magpa-picture sa kanila at sa'kin at pinagbibigyan lang namin lahat.

When we get to the second floor, huminto kami sa isang kwarto. I was confused, nasa dulo pa kasi ang kwarto nila at nasa katabing kwarto nito kami tumigil.

Nilingon ako ni Zhyne at Charles, sila kasi ang naunang maglakad kaya nagtatanong ang mga mata ko na tiningnan sila.

May tumulak sa'kin palapit sa pintuan at ng malapit na ako, Zhyne opened the door para tuluyan akong makapasok. He avoided my gaze.

“I'm sorry, Lavin. Ang ganda ng offer niya, eh,” Caspian shouted before they close the door.

Sinubukan kong buksan pero naka locked sa labas. What's wrong with these people?

May tumikhim sa likod ko, my heart automatically beats wildly. I tried to forget him but my heart just couldn't.

Mas nanaig ang lungkot kesa sayang nararamdaman.

Nang lumingon ako, I saw the man whom I tried to avoid for the past years. What's going on?

We are facing each other, and the only barrier between us is a table while we are sitting in chairs on both sides. Maliit lang ang table kaya I can see him clearly.

His curly hair is in a clean cut, her face is still the same but it's more mature than before, and his jaw is evident. He got taller than before too. 

“Are you just going to stare at me?” hindi ko na mapigilan ang sarili ko at magtanong.

Tumikhim siya at nagsalitang hindi hinihiwalay ang kan'yang paningin sa mukha. It's like he's memorizing my face because I might vanish anytime.

“I'm sorry.”

Huminga ako ng malalim. I'm not ready for this conversation.

“Sorry for what? for ghosting me on my birthday? for choosing her? for breaking your words?” I saw how he avoided my gaze and gulped.

He guiltily nodded and he weekly looks at me again.

“I know it's all my fault... I thought I was doing the right choice but when I found out that I am hurting you, it was too late, nakaalis ka na,” mahinang sabi nito.

“Pasensya na kung nabigo kita... pero nagmamakaawa ako, Lav, don't let go of the star. H-H'wag, 'wag muna...” he quickly wipes the tear that escapes his eye.

“I don't have the right to beg, but I can't just lose you without fighting. I was wrong, Lav. G-give me another chance, another chance to prove myself,” he pleaded.

“Bakit ngayon pa, Atticus, kung kailan desidido na akong kalimutan ka?” I asked without blinking to see his reaction.

I saw how he panicked and look at me shaking his head. His eyes speak a lot of emotions of longing, guilt, and regret.

“H-hinanap kita. Sa loob ng tatlong taon, hinanap kita kung saan-saan pero they hide you well, Lav. Hinanap kita sa malayo pero nasa malapit ka lang pala. I only found out recently that you're only here.”

Paano niya ako mahahanap ko ako mismo ay nagtatago.

“Willow likes you, Atticus and you chose her-”