Love from Gangsters

Chapter 15

Y/n's POV

We finally got to London. It felt like we were on the road for days. I stayed leaning my head on the window and looking out to all the people. I didn't want my brother to know I was awake, he would try to start a conversation with me.

I didn't want to talk to him or my father, they had kept this secret from me for so long. We finally pulled up to the drive way. I looked at the trees and all of the cars up at the house. My brother parked the car and tapped me on the shoulder.

"Y/n, were here." he said, opening the door and grabbing some of my bags.

"I'll be in soon, I just want to be alone." I said, still staring out the window.

"Y/n, father will come get you himself." he said, opening my door.

I got out and walked to the house. I had forgotten how big it was, how it was too big for our small family. I reached the door and stopped, I put my hand on the knob and froze even more. I felt a sudden panic, I turned around and my brother grabbed my arm guding back to the door.

"I know its been a while Y/n, but he's waiting." he said, putting down my bags opening the door.

I walked in behind him and could instantly smell my mothers perfume. It smelled like daisys and a hint of fresh air. I smiled and started walking towards her room, the thought of her being gone felt like a dream. I opened her bedroom door and no one was there.

I dropped to the floor and started sobbing again. I heard my brother and father fighting in my fathers office but I didn't care enough to listen. All I could think of was that I would never see my mother again.

I finally pulled myself together and went to my room. When I opened the door, I saw everything was still where I had left it. I sat on my bed and cried more. All of my thoughts came rushing at once. I wasn't just crying because of my mother.

I was crying because I left the Shelbys, I left Arthur. I wrote him that note confessing about the time Thomas and I had. I told him I loved him, but I knew that wouldn't be enough for him to forgive me. I cried because the last time I saw Thomas he was so cold and ruthless towards me.

I left the Shelbys and I knew I had started a war between brothers.

Thomas's POV

Ada came to the Garrison, she barged in while I was in the middle of something. She handed me a letter and said something about Y/n. I took the letter and shoved it in my pocket.

"Who's Y/n?"

"None of your bloody business," I said, did this whore really have the confidence to question me? I grabbed her arm and stood up. We both walked out and headed back to Shelby Company Limited.

When I walked in Arthur gave me a glare while the others sat at the table looking at a piece of paper whispering to each other. I didn't think much of it because I didn't care. I walked upstairs and opened the door to my room.

I took of my coat and grabbed the letter putting it on my beside table. A few minutes later I was naked fucking a woman I never wanted to talk to again. I had her bent over my bed and all I could do was look at that fucking letter.

I thought to myself again, Y/n wasn't here and she wouldn't have left me a letter if she didn't leave Small Heath. I stopped what I was doing and got dressed.

"Leave." I told the naked woman standing across from me.

She looked at me and put her clothes back on, she put her hand out. I walked over to my coat and reached in one of the pockets, giving her a pound. She walked out leaving me with only the letter I had been staring at for 30 minutes.

I walked over to the table and grabbed it. I headed downstairs and Arthur wasn't there. I went to my office and sat down. I opened the envelope and unfolded the paper.

Dear Thomas Shelby,

I couldn't leave without writing this, I will be leaving Small Heath for a while. There has been complications that I have to attend. I'm sorry that you had to see me with Arthur, I'm sorry that I betrayed both of you. By the time you read this Arthur will know about us. You and Arthur both mean something to me, I'm not going to choose between the two of you because I know I have lost you both. The kiss at the races and the kiss in your room meant something to me. I am in love with you and your brother Thomas, but I don't know if I could ever marry you. What you showed me today was who you truly are. You are a scary man Thomas Shelby.

Love Y/n

I sat the letter down rubbing my face. Arthur knows about what happened, he must think the same of her as I do. Y/n played both of us, she was so innocent and when she got the chance to be devilish it ate her up.

I couldn't stay mad at Y/n considering her father and I were going to be business partners. I still didn't know why she left, I know it wasn't because of business or her father would've told me. I stayed in my office all night thinking of how I was going to play this with Arthur.

I knew he would want to kill me, so I would just have to apologize or get him to forget about the whole thing. A few hours later everyone left and I heard a door slam.

"Oi-someone come down here and drink with me," Arthur said, stumbling on his words.

I walked out of my office, "brother, go to bed." I said, pointing at the steps.

"Fuck off Thomas, I'll fucking kill ya eh?" Arthur said, walking towards me stumbling on his own feet. He fell to the floor and got back up and then fell in a chair.

"We both had our fair share with Y/n, you don't think I'm bloody pissed?" I asked him raising my voice. "I was her first kiss Arthur, you were her-,"

"You were her test run Thomas, you left bruises on her," Arthur said, raising his voice. "She said you were a monster brother,"

"Were both monsters Arthur, I choose not to hide it and shelter her from it," I said, walking away from him. I walked back into my office and started writing her a note.

Dear Y/n,

I'll be seeing you soon.

Thomas Shelby

I didn't need to write much, I would talk to her before Arthur got to. I folded the letter and put it inside an envelope. I walked out of my office and saw Arthur on the ground sleeping. I turned the lights off and went upstairs.