The Brain is Never at Rest

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They said, "fall in love with someone who expresses themselves in a manner that only you would understand."

I knew it was impossible to find a love that you could understand. Love is a complex manner that no one could ever explain in detail, no matter how hard they try.

Love can be an empty theater seat we have avoided, thinking it might already be occupied by somebody else. Love can be a swift morning wind that passed by when you stood on your terrace to witness the coming of another day. Love could be a few stanzas of poems or a broken lyric that seem to sound nonsense, but in between those lines, you knew what it meant. Love has always been like that - it never fails to make you feel like you have to run around in circles all the time.

But maybe because we were looking for complexity, love became a scribble of abstract ideas we kept misunderstanding. How do I perceive love, you ask? It was as simple as having someone understand the exact meaning of my written proses. As I see it, love is when someone gives me space when I need some time for myself. I saw love when he helped me look for the missing pair of socks for 15 minutes. Love was present when he gave me a cup of coffee after seeing me prepare a compilation of case studies I must read and review. Love was there when I was devastated by how things turned out after I got a low score on an exam. Love read me my favorite books, allowed me to cry when things get too heavy, and reprimands me when I disrespect limits; love was painted and defined all over the house that I forgot how I used to identify it. I do not remember it being bright as the stars, never as calm as the blue sky, and most especially, it was not all about the butterflies.

Love became more of a reality than an emotion to me. Love was present wherever I set foot. Love was there even if he physically wasn't. And love never looked like this before.

Now Iunderstand when they say that I should fall in love with someone who expressesthemselves in a manner that I am the only person who would understand. Loveneeds no explanations between two people who are genuinely committed to it.