The Brain is Never at Rest

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Over and over, I would still choose to fall in love. It may be a little skeptical, running around in circles several times to memorize the precise recipe to achieve a long-lasting love. But it is still something I would love to go through again and again.

I will still learn to read between the lines, memorize the entirety of a person, observe and be amused by everything he does, fall in love with his daze and his gaze, and how he makes me feel loved and amazed. Even the parts that annoyed me and made me question his intentions, I would gladly go through it again if I had to.

If he asks me to prove how much I am into him, I will not bear shame in every action I will do. If I have to sing him songs at night to make him sleep or cook him his favorite snack whenever he feels down - there is not a thing I cannot do for him.

There is something unexplainable about falling in love. Even writers struggle to find the perfect description of love. It sure does not come on a silver platter. When you are in love, you appreciate even the most trivial things.

The way he smiles becomes the highlight of your day. You will start to love how he speaks through his eyes. You will even memorize his habits when he is nervous and dubious. You will learn how to calm him when he is unsure about things. In other words, he will automatically become the center of everything you say and do.

You will not speak simple words, but in every detailed description, you will make him a god-like figure. In your eyes, he will always matter. He may not be perfect, but he will always be the words that will bring life to your neat piece of paper. And in every song, the first thing that will cross your mind is his name.

And that is because loving him is a choice you will consistently make – even if it's not in the options left.