lover • josh allen

002

NOTHING

"i must admit i thought i'd like to make you mine as i went about my business through the warning signs."

september 10, 2022
📍BUFFALO, NY
📍DALLAS, TX

my flight to dallas is today, i came back to buffalo last night to empty my suitcase and to refill it again.

i don't have to cover this dallas game, but i want to go. it's my other brother's first game of the season and i want to be there.

he plays tomorrow but my flight to dallas is today, i want to get there at a reasonable time so i can go to sleep early.

this time change is insane, i went from three hours behind to three hours ahead, to one hour behind.

my body is confused on what day it is and my mind would be too if i didn't have my phone to remind me.

i carried my suitcase to the door and waited until stefon arrived to take me to the airport.

i got a text from him saying that he was here and i walked outside.

he put my suitcase in the trunk and i sat in the passenger seat. "it's not too late for you to come with me you know." i state.

"el, it actually is too late." stefon said shifting gears and pulling off.

"okay, maybe it is too late but i don't want to go alone." i say.

"you've gone to so many games by yourself, you'll be fine." stefon states. "but what i'm worried about is the fact you are going on back to back trips with different time zones." he says.

"i'll be fine, stef." i say rolling my eyes. he's the most overprotective out of my two brothers.

"so," stefon says dragging it out as if he's waiting for me to tell him something.

"so?" i ask wondering what he wants me to say.

"any tea for me?" he asks.

"josh left a note on my car the other day after the game, and my phone didn't charge last night so that's about it." i say shrugging my shoulders.

"wait huh?" stefon says.

"yeah, i guess the charger wasn't plugged in or something, i don't really know." i say.

"no, josh thing." stefon says. "what did the note say?" he asks.

"it just said hi, literally hi." i say.

"how'd you know it was from him?" he asks, i don't know why he's asking me all these questions.

"he signed his name." i say. "why are you asking all these questions?" i ask.

"no reason." he says.

•

after stefon dropped me off at the airport, i grabbed some starbucks. i don't know who is on my side today but the line wasn't long at all.

i mean, it is 2 in the afternoon, but i take wins where i can get them.

while i'm in dallas, dak has been kind enough to let me stay at his house. dak and i have been friends for a very long time, i've known him longer than i've known josh.

dak also happens to be dating my best friend liza, which is a match made in heaven for me.

i put my headphones over my ears once i get to my gate and wait until i can board.

i pull out my book, the seven husbands of evelyn hugo, and start reading some of it. i'm halfway through and i haven't been able to put it down this last week.

once i board the plane, i sit down in the window seat, hopefully no one takes the isle or middle seat so i have a row to myself. i doubt it, but a girl can dream.

boarding is almost done, and i am starting to get my hopes up that no one is going to be sitting in my row when someone does sit down in the isle seat.

i pick my book up and don't really pay much attention to him during the flight, and thankfully he doesn't say anything to me either.

once i arrive in dallas, dak and liza pick me up from the airport. i feel like i haven't seen them in so long.

"are you and josh together yet?" dak asks as i get into the back seat.

"okay, i missed you too." i say. "and no, what makes you think that?" i ask.

"everyone knows." liza says. "i think the only people that don't know are you and josh." she states.

"no, i know." i say. "but josh doesn't feel the same way." i state.

"whatever you say." liza says with a slight laugh.

•

once we arrive at dak's house and i put my suitcase in the guest room, i join them in the living room.

i have no clue what they are watching, but i watch it anyway.

liza pauses the tv. "i think your phone is ringing, ela." she says.

"i'll just answer it later." i say, not wanting to interrupt the tv show.

dak looks on the coffee table to see who is calling me. "it's a facetime from josh, you should answer." he says handing me my phone.

i swipe the call button. "hey." i say, answering the phone.

"did you make it to dallas ok?" he asks.

"yep, all good." i say. i move the phone to show him liza and dak. "say hi." i say showing dak on the phone, since liza is in the bathroom.

"hi josh." dak says waving at the camera.

i turn the camera back to me and josh's usual smile isn't there anymore. "k, well i'll talk to you later." he says plainly, then he hangs up the phone before i can say anything else.

"what was that all about?" i say.

"he's jealous." dak states. i scrunch my nose and furrow my eyebrows. no way is joshua allen jealous because of me.

AUTHOR'S NOTE:

i'm watching gilmore girls for the first time and i'm on episode 14 of season 1, dean is on my nerves this episode tho