My Soldier (Bucky Barnes)

Confiding

-ANASTASSIA POV-

After setting down the new painting for drying, I changed into clean clothes and went to find Tony in the lab, alone. His back was turned towards me as he worked on some machines and wires on his table. "Mr. Stark, Miss Dvorvak is currently in the lab", the AI spoke. "Thanks FRIDAY." He turned and looked at me. "Hey kid, what brings you here? Don't tell me you need poptarts." "Thor's here?" I asked him. "Apparently, his girlfriend is having a check up." I looked at him quizzically and then shook my head. "I don't want pop tarts. I uh, wanted to talk to you." "Sure kid, what about?" I looked around nervously which he noticed. "FRIDAY lock the room and don't let anyone listen to us from outside. It's fine kid, we are all secure." he reassured me. I kept playing with the sleeves of my oversized hoodie. Tony was looking at me expectantly and softly. I sighed and gave in to the confession. "I talked to Kelsey and we decided its time that I come clean to you all. I wanted to talk about why I tried to commit suicide." I looked at him and saw genuineness on his face, encouraging me to continue. "It wasn't completely because of the small boy and his mom. It was because-" I felt tears escaping from my eyes. This was meant to be easy unlike what had happened with Kelsey. I sniffled  and felt a hand over my right arm. I looked up and saw a soft expression on Tony's face who nodded at me. "It was because I couldn't bring Rumlow to justice." I pause as I shudder a bit. 

"You might be thinking 'this ain't a good reason and all' but he deserved to experience hell like I did back at HYDRA. He was supposed to experience the torture, the beatings, the whipping and so- so much more. He deserved every ounce of terrible things to happen to him. Death was just an escape for him. I wanted to bring us to justice. The things he did-" I shivered as tears were evidently falling from my red puffy eyes. Tony quickly stood in front of me with him holding me by my shoulders. "What did he do to you Ana?" he asked in a serious tone. "Did he- he?-" his lips quivered as he looked at me with his teary eyes. "He and his men had raped me" I sobbed heavily after uttering those words. The words that took me years to admit to someone I could trust. Tony held me tightly as I sobbed into his chest and stroked his hand over my head. I could feel his tears on me. He was crying too. We stayed like that for some time till I pulled back. "Listen kid, I am truly proud of you. You got the courage to admit it to me. Thankyou for trusting me with it. Although we can't change things about Rumlow, I can surely do something about the remaining men and get you justice. I promise you. It doesn't change the way I always saw you as an individual. Infact, I am prouder than ever. Really kid." he said as he cried. "Thankyou so much Tony", I hugged him again and soon let go.

"I guess you have talked about it with Kels?" I nodded. Kelsey was Tony's family friend hence him calling her 'Kels'. "Good. Don't forget that we love you. This thing doesn't change anything. I love you, kid" "I won't forget it. I love you too, dad" I smiled. "You know I've always thought 'dad' suits me well. Should I have kids with Pepper? We've been thinking of marriage." he wondered loudly. "Tony! But it's sweet you wanna marry Pep and spend your life with her. Propose to her soon." "I will kiddo. Thanks. Are you gonna tell others about this?" he asked. "Eventually but it depends on when I feel comfortable talking about it." I answered honestly. "I understand. Just to give you a little heads up, try talking out with Romanoff first. You know, girls have eachothers' backs. Might help a bit." I smiled at his genuine effort of boosting my confidence. "I will Tony. Thanks." 

I hugged him again and then left the lab. It was evening now and I was a tad bit hungry so I decided to head to the kitchen to eat something. I just entered the room and saw that most of them had been there too. Steve, Sam and Bucky were in a conversation and Bucky looked unbothered as hell. Wanda and Vision were in corner while Nat and Bruce were at the kitchen counter sipping wine together as they talked. I went to the cabinets to bring out a snack and to my disappointment they were all poptarts. I guess those were Thor's welcome back gifts. I drank a glass of water as my throat had been dry due to the crying and I left the room immediately. 

-BUCKY POV-

Sam had been boring me with his mission stories throughout the day. The therapy sessions were enough to kill me already that I had to listen to his crap. The man is fun and good but can get annoying a lot of times. I seriously wonder how Steve can even pay attention to those. He would even fucking reply to them. I was rolling my eyes every now and then which made them hurt so I just decided on giving a dead expression through the rest of the time. Just then, Natsya walked into the lounge and headed to the kitchen. She stopped a bit to look at others but continued ahead nonetheless. She looked different today. Her body looked slouched and exhausted while her eyes looked red and tired. Had she been crying? She looked into cabinets for food but gave a disappointed look and shut them. Instead she opted for a glass of water, drank it reverently and left the room without speaking anything. Everybody except Sam noticed it since he was into narrating his story. He saw our diverted attention and looked at her too. 

"Was that Ana? She looked like she had seen a ghost or something", he said. I just glared at him. "She looked as if she was crying", Nat said as she and Wanda approached us. "Does anyone know why she might have been crying?" Steve spoke up. "I don't know. Maybe we should try asking her." Wanda said. "We don't want what had happened last time cuz of your bitch Rogers", Nat spoke. "Alright first of all, I broke up with her. Secondly, I spoke to Ana about it, she seemed fine in the morning. No reason to bring that out, Romanoff." he said with equal energy as her. "Yeah man she was punching the life outta the poor punching bag in the morning today before she kicked my ass. It's still sore" I muffled my laugh just like the others. "But seriously, we need to look out for her. She is a little sensitive for now.'' said Wanda. 

"I believe we must keep a close attention towards Miss Dvorvak. I see them doing stress painting. They aren't eating enough either." Vision stated. "Wait, she's not eating? I saw have dinner with us last night." I said in confusion. "Miss Dvorvak have been throwing up at night for a few days. I checked in with what FRIDAY has observed it in a weekly pattern." he cleared it to us all. "Why didn't you ever tell us?" Nat asked in a slight annoyance. "Nobody asked?" he said defensively. "What matters right now is that we got to check on her. She shouldn't be feeling like this. Poor girl." Wanda said with concern. How could she not tell either of us about how she was feeling all this while? Not only that but also pretend everything was fine? Is she really not doing well? "We got to talk to her therapist soon enough." Steve commented. "We got no idea of what she could be doing other than starving herself." He stated with sadness in his tone. "So that's how you all fucking think about me?" we all heard. We turned our heads and saw her standing at the doorway, looking at us teary eyed, red and in disbelief at all of us. Fuck she heard it.

A/N: She heard them all talk behind her back. What will she do now? Will she confront them? Let me know your views in teh comments!!