Reborn

Chapter 31

I had my fingers locked into my hair and I fall to my knees, screaming in pain. "(Y/N)!" I couldn't recognize anyone's voices as I was only focused on the sharp pain that was shooting throughout every part of my body. "Don't be reckless!" Hisoka's nen then stops. I couldn't be bothered with it though. I was just happy that my screams have stopped.

Although, the pain still remains. I couldn't move. "Mr. Wing!" I let out deep, shaky breaths, now having tears stream down my cheeks. 'I can't sign up for a match today...' I suddenly thought. I felt like I was going to pass out. "You have no defense against his nen." Wing says. To me, he sounded muffled.

I felt as if water were stuck in my ears. As the two boys converse with Wing, I stay on the floor with my fingers pulling at my strands of hair, hoping it would ease the pain. "Right now, you are like someone standing naked in a blizzard, wondering why it's cold." I then hear muffled footsteps come closer to me.

I couldn't even back away. I was afraid of being touched. "If you continue to strain your body, you may die." Wing says. I then feel gentle hands being placed on my shoulders. "You're also putting (y/n) in danger. He can't handle whatever is wrong with him." I was then forced to stand up by the gentle hands, now leaning against Wing.

"Is this nen? Can he stop us from moving forward through willpower? Don't lie!" Killua exclaims. "(Y/n), you need to stop gripping your hair. And yes, I was lying." Letting out another deep, shaky breath, I slowly remove my hands from my hair. I was hurting. I didn't know what to do to get it to stop. Wing then pulls me closer, making sure that I didn't fall.

"Though technically, I wasn't lying completely. I will teach you the truth about nen. So, retreat for now." As Gon now talks to the receptionist lady, Wing starts to slowly walk away, keeping me upright. He was trying to make sure that I could walk. What confused me though was why didn't Wing wait for Killua to ask if they can make it back by midnight? 

I then wrap my arms around Wing's waist, still feeling the stabbing pain throughout my body. I can't go up to the 200th floor. I just can't.

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"Simply put, this is nen. Nen refers to the ability to manipulate your aura that is emitted from your body." Wing explains. I was picking at my nails, feeling very nervous about all of this. My body had stopped hurting by this point but being able to wield nen... It was concerning, to say the least. I was scared about what might happen if Wing forces my aura out.

I ignore Wings lecture as the adult walks towards the whiteboard, explaining things mostly to Gon and Killua. Biting my lower lip, I decide to sit on the floor and stare blankly at the wall. 'I'm not going to the 200th floor.' I thought through half lidded eyes. I was tired, mentally and physically. I didn't think that any of this would happen.

"(Y/n), are you listening?" Wing asks, making me flinch at the sound of his voice. "Oh... uh, yeah. I am... I guess." I reply back, giving Wing a nervous smile. "This information is important so please do pay attention." I nod my head, hoping Wing would just leave me to my own thoughts. Wing then starts to explain about all of the exercises of nen.

I glance at the boys' as they watch intently as Wing writes everything down on the whiteboard. 'They will understand if I don't go to the 200th floor, right?' I thought once more, staring at a certain white-haired boy with such intensity. I was caught in the act when Killua's eyes glanced in my direction, forcing us to have a staring contest.

"Which brings us to Ren, a technique to create an especially strong aura." Wing says, now slightly releasing his aura. I break my eye contact with Killua and stare at Wing, letting my breath hitch. "Can you feel that?" Wing asks, giving us a smile. "Yes, I can feel the pressure." Killua says, now looking over at Gon who was also looking at him.

"But it doesn't feel dangerous." Gon also says. "That's because I have no hostile intent." I swallow the lump in my throat, knowing what was about to happen next. "Hmm. What about you, (y/n)? Did you feel that?" Wing asks, now turning his attention to me. Wing could clearly see how nervous I was about this.

It was like he was trying to reassure me that everything was going to be fine. That I'll be fine. "I uhm... I did." I say, biting my lower lip. As Wing keeps quiet, now talking to himself in his mind, I stare over at the besties. They were talking to each other and smiling, making me feel a bit at ease. They'll be fine without me there.

I was holding them back anyway. Going to the 200th floor with them will just slow them down. The boys' then stop talking once they hear Wing speak once again. "Aura is an energy that comes from within humans, which makes it very effective against other humans. For better or worse." As Wing explains further, I let out a loud dad sneeze that makes everyone look over at me.

"(Y/n)? That came from you?" Gon asks, making my face heat up from embarrassment. "W-who cares. Wing, just keep on explaining." I say, looking over to the side, hoping that they wouldn't pay me any mind. "Ahem. Anyway, only one thing can protect you from someone who uses nen. You must also learn to use nen." Wing says, now staring at the wall like a sensei.

Wing further explains that we must use Ten for defense and block the other persons aura with our own. 'This is reminding me of that movie Kong Fu Panda.' I thought, letting out a quiet chuckle at my random thought. Wing then places his hand on the wall, letting out his aura. Once the wall bursts, I flinch and scoot back a bit.

It looked cool in the anime but seeing it in real life is kinda... You know. I could already imagine Gon's and Killua's face. I take a deep breath and grip my baggy hoodie with uneasiness. Wing then turns towards us with a determined look, saying, "Your body will be shattered beyond all recognition." I clear my throat, feeling just as shocked as the boys were.

For my safety, I knew that I couldn't follow Gon and Killua anymore. I was even frightened by the nen that we would be using very soon. I started to wonder if I would be qualified for this. 'Would I even be able to handle it? I mean, if I couldn't handle the will of Hisoka's nen then how would I be able to wield it? I'm not like the besties over here.' I bite my lower lip.

I don't even belong here. "(Y/n), I can tell that you're nervous." Wing suddenly spoke up, forcing me out of my thoughts. "N-nervous? I'm just a little... worried." I said, glancing over at the white-haired boy who was already looking in my direction. "I understand. For obvious reasons, you'll go last." I let out a surprised sound, not knowing what Wing meant.

Well, at least fully what he meant...