Help me to love again (finished)

Chapter 31 : «you will have to pay attention to the words you have with Pete. »

Pete

It is with some relief that I finally see Monday coming. Porsche is suspended from class because of its behavior on Friday. So I'll be able to have a good time with Vegas without worrying about everything.

This weekend, Porsche didn't stop passing it by making my head for everything and nothing. Fortunately, I bowed to his orders quickly enough so that he would calm down and not get angry any more. But I confess that I was very afraid for my safety.

Porsche has not stopped asking me sexually at least a dozen times. I only agreed twice, just to make you understand how Porsche controls me and the immense grip it has on me.

My survival instinct has been disrupted by the arrival of Vegas for a week now. My desire to live and not to survive takes over. I want to rebel against Porsche but the fear of the consequences is still too high. I still have to wait before...

I turn to the terrified corridor. It's 5:30 am. I got up early to take public transport and go to school but obviously Porsche decides otherwise. Dressed in a jogging and a sweatshirt, he stares at me wickedly.

I immediately take off my chair to go to the kitchen and make him breakfast.

- Porsche I didn't know you were standing... you should have told me that you were planning...

I get interrupted.

- I told you that I was going to take you to university have you lost your memory? Or are you pretending to be stupid?

I start preparing his breakfast, my hands trembling.

- Sorry Porsche. I forgot but if you mind getting up for me I can take public transport it's not what's missing here...

I turn to the table and Porsche still looks at me wickedly. It hasn't taken off since yesterday. ..

- I'm not going to leave you within anyone's reach.

I look down.

- This... is not what I wanted to imply. I just didn't want you to bother for me. I can manage to go to university... but... it's as you want...

I raise my head and I see Porsche displaying a satisfied head.

- exactly Pete. I'll come with you and then I'll come back here to start working on the file I have to do with Déborah. She told me to choose the subject I wanted.

I shake my head while continuing to make Porsche's real favorite breakfast: pancakes. Hoping that it softens him, I turn to him and realize that he is behind me.

- Porsche ...? Something is wrong? Do you want me to do something else to you...?

Porsche is not responding. He simply contemplates me and I'm a little confused. While staring at him, I take care of his pancakes by turning them over and putting them on his plate.

- Do you want coffee, Porsche... or...

- Shh....

Porsche approaches me and puts his fingers on my lips. I am so stunned by this behavior that I keep quiet and let myself go.

He puts his hands on my hips and says something I don't expect.

- I'm sorry I raped you on Saturday and yesterday. I promised to stop hurting you and I didn't listen to you. You were afraid of me all weekend and...

I shake my head.

- No, it's me... I deserved it... I... I misbehaved you punished me it's normal. I... I should have remained wise...