Help me to love again (finished)

Chapter 46: « Love me Vegas. »

Later in the evening

Porsche

I went home once I dropped off Pete's belongings at Vegas. For once, I'm very happy not to have Pete in the pasta because tonight I'm having a special guest. Big wants to talk to me about a seemingly important subject. I don't know what it is and I'm filled with apprehension.

I have the impression that something major is going to happen. I sigh, but let's already imagine having a conversation. So the main subject is called my parents. I know he wants to plead their case with me so that I can help them financially, but it's not going to be possible, because I still feel hatred for them and everything they have done to me. The fact that big is on their side, makes me go even more.

I hated him before because he betrayed my trust by violating Pete. I expect that this is also what I do from time to time, but I hate when you touch my business and all those who belong to me.

I come back through the door of my apartment, and I have the good surprise to see snow coming towards me miaowing.

- Hi Snow...

I take him in my arms before travelling a distance to put him on the table.
I'm going to make my food while waiting for Big to arrive to tell me what he wants.

I feel more and more bad.
What if he arrived with my parents?
They are the greatest demons.
Those who made me a violent person.
Those who have those of me someone suffering from a fear of abandonment.

That's why I cut off contact with them.
That's why I imprison Pete with photos and videos of him.
I don't want to be alone.
Loneliness will kill me.

I make myself eat in silence, my head in my thoughts. Pete absent I will be more comfortable to face my demons. I could attack him if he is near me.

It's better for him to stay with Vegas and Kim tonight.

I trust them enough to keep my property safe.

I eat leftover meals without really wanting to. I just want to have a good evening and not think about Big and everything he wants to tell me.

I take a deep breath when I finish my meal and do the dishes.

Pete sent me a message. I know it because my phone rings a notification.

I hasten to take my phone.

"Hello Porsche
I'm doing homework with Vegas. I hope you are well. Tomorrow, will you wait for us in front of the gate so that we can go to court together? "

The fact that he calls me baby I smile. An acting game in every detail.

"Hi my baby,
This is very good news.
Yes, I'm fine. (Lie)
Tomorrow I will wait for you in front of the gate.
I'll call you tonight before going to bed. "

I put my phone on the coffee table and sit on my sofa to turn on the TV... except that my doorbell rings.
In a bad mood I go to the door and open. I expected Big... but not to see him with two familiar presences.

Mom and dad are here.
In front of me.
A decomposed and dejected face and also filled with guilt.

- Is it a joke?! First you come back and then you bring them?! You are also sick...