Help me to love again (finished)

Chapter 44: « I feel like I'm going back.»

Monday morning.

Pete
We are starting a new week of classes. For the first time I am panicked at the idea of going there. The fact that Big is in the city does not reassure him. He always had a bad influence on Porsche, with whom I had had a hard time having a balanced relationship.

Porsche is sensitive when it comes to Big. He indirectly represents his parents, those who rejected him.

Porsche suffers a lot and does not know how to get rid of all its malaise.

He never wanted to consult a psychologist to talk about it. He thinks it's weak yet he would need it.

We are currently with Vegas in his car to go to university. Porsche and I fucked almost all night. He needed several rounds to be satisfied.

We fucked in the bed, on the floor, in the shower in all Porsche's favourite positions. I did my best to make him in a good mood this morning.

It's a mixed success. He's been screaming since this morning but I don't lose hope that he'll be new in a good mood.

I let him touch me as he wants and Vegas does not comment. I think that there he understood that nothing should disturb Porsche at the moment.

We take the path of faculty in total silence.

- Porsche, are you working at the restaurant tonight?

I'm trying to make the conversation but Porsche is not really receptive.

- Yes, I work. From 7:45 p.m. to closing and you?

- Same but until 1 a.m. I'll take public transport to get home. Will you leave me money?

- Yes, baby, I'll go and remove it.

Porsche puts his hand on my thigh and caress. I'm smiling.

- Okay.

We remain silent again. We arrive at the University quite quickly, which makes it possible to minimise discomfort. Porsche takes the way to the parking lot and we quickly get out of the car.

- We have a very interesting course this morning, it is new to the time schedule. It's Legal Anthropology...

Porsche takes my hand in his and I answer in Vegas:

- It's something I know... I had classes of that last year. I'm going to finish first...

Vegas allows itself to say:

- We'll see...

I laugh and we rush into the law building... without knowing that it was going to be the beginning of my misfortunes.

Vegas

We arrive quickly in this morning's class and we don't waste time to settle down.

We take the places of the fund, as usual.

Pete settles in the middle of me and Porsche. I am very happy with that. Pete looks at me more and more comfortable with me. Porsche no longer makes suspicious remarks between me and Pete and it's very good like that.