Help me to love again (finished)

C 66: « I have nothing to fear with you like you have nothing to fear with me. »

Pete

I remain alone with Vegas, in silence. He hasn't said a word since Kim left. He's in tears and it hurts me a lot.

Even if I had planned not to interact with him as necessary, I must be present for him.

I pass my arms around his waist and let him grip me gently.

- P... P'Pete... don't... don't leave me alone please... I... I don't want to stay alone...

Vegas is sented with tremors. I hold him gently in my arms.

- Shh... I'm here... I'm here... I'm not going to leave you alone darling... I'm staying with you.

Vegas is crying very hard.

- I'm sorry P'Pete... I... didn't want this whole situation to lead us to this... I... I wouldn't do anything again without... without listening to you...

I take the liberty of separating myself from him. He is really in a terrible state.

- I know Vegas... I know... it's going to be okay... Your baby is not going to leave... Daddy can relax...

I kiss him on the mouth but briefly so that he doesn't imagine that he can do what he wants with me now.

Vegas lets itself go and does not protest when I already leave it.

- sit on the couch, Vegas. We will postpone our spice egg evening and order what you want us to eat. What do you think?'s

I give him a smile so that he can relax a little. Vegas straightens up and cleans his face with the back of his hand.

- I... okay... I... I'm going to sit down... P'Pete...

It's very strange to see it this way but I'm not going to make any comments.

- We could watch one of your American soap operas... even if I don't love it.

I take Vegas by the hand to take him to the couch. I make him sit down and he automatically lies on my legs.

I caress her hair.

- Everything will soon be better in a while. Don't worry. I forgive you.

- You shouldn't.

Vegas turns his head towards me, looking sad.

- I could start being violent again...and that's not what I want... for us...

- If I give you the tools to channel your ardor everything will go well. We have to take the time

To get to know us better. We'll get there...

Vegas crosses my eyes and he grabs me by the hand and serves it delicately.

- I won't disappoint you P'Pete. It's promised.

Seeing Vegas like this really hurts me but feeling sorry for the lot instead of changing it is useless.

Vegas turns away from me to look at television. I turn it on and then I put on the channel or play his American soap operas.

I grab my phone to order all the meals that Vegas loves.

Vegas

I spend the strangest period of my life. For the first time in my life, I feel guilty for hurting someone I loved.

Kim is still angry with me but that doesn't mean that he will stop taking care of me and Pete or that he won't forgive me one day for the harm I did to him.

Pete ordered my favorite dishes that I will eat with a good heart. Even if I am demoralized, I am still very hungry.

The delivery man came by, I went to pay and get the dishes. All smells very good and I feel a little better.