My Green Eyed Kryptonite (Supercorp)

Chapter 4

Kara's POV

I have never been so nervous for anything else in the entire world. Okay, that's most likely a lie but this has got to be up there. Alex is on her way over because I told her I needed to talk to her about something important.

Lena left about 2 hours ago as it's now 3:00 in the afternoon. Last night we just went to sleep and that was it. We didn't talk or interact because we both were too tired.

I used to always be so hesitant when Lena started sleeping in my bed. The last person to sleep there was Mon-el so I was scared it would bring things up to the surface. It did at one point but Lena comforted me and even slept with me on my side of the bed rather than the other side. I found it charming.

This morning I used my super speed and got breakfast for us while she was asleep. By the time I got back she was brushing her teeth with the toothbrush I have for her in my bathroom.

I've now cleaned my whole apartment without using super speed from how nervous I am. It was a distraction at the time but now as I'm pacing my kitchen I can't stop thinking about it. I know my sister, she'll be supportive and listen to everything I say, it's just a lot of vulnerability I'm giving up.

I can hear Alex on the phone with Maggie in the hallway getting closer and closer to my door. I walk over and wait until I know she's on the other side of the door and I yank it open. "Jesus, Kara!" She yells catching her phone that she almost dropped.

"No, it's just Kara giving me a heart attack, I love you, I'll talk to you later!" She says ending the call.

She invites herself in and grabs a beer from my fridge. The beer in my fridge is mostly just for Alex and Maggie and whoever else because I can't get drunk off human alcohol and don't really enjoy the taste of beer anyways.

Alex sits on a seat next to the kitchen island and says, "Kara what's bothering you?" She asks. Alex has always been able to tell if something was wrong. Even as I got older, I got better at keeping things from Eliza and Jeremiah, but Alex could always see right through me. It used to drive me crazy but now I'm thankful that I know I'll always have someone to confide in.

I walk to the "Danvers Couch" and sit down as Alex follows and does the same. I prop my feet underneath me and try to gather my thoughts. Alex is patient and doesn't rush me.

"H-how did you know that you um—" I began to say but then get nervous.

"That I what?" She asks genuinely curious to wear this conversation is going.

"That you liked gir—" I start but hear someone screaming for help...and the sound of a building falling? "Hold on, I'll be right back." I say changing into my super suit and taking off.

Turns out the person that was screaming was a mom, and her 14 year old daughter was stuck in the building that was collapsing. I used my super speed and found the girl as I flew up as the building went down. I landed next to the mom with her daughter who was staring in shock at the building with dust and rubble surrounding it.

"Mom?" The girl brings her mom out of her worst thoughts. I admire the reunion and remember Alex is still at my apartment so I fly back to my apartment. Time to face my fears.

I fly back through my window and see Alex in the same place I left her at. She sees me and I avoid eye contact walking over. "Kara I heard you, please don't feel like you can't talk to me about it. When did you start feeling this way or realizing you may be feeling this way?" She asks.

This reminds me when she thought I was disappointed in her and came over to my apartment when she had come out to me.

I sit back down where I was before and grab my glasses fidgeting with them in my hands. "There's this girl...and I never thought that I would feel anything...a-at all since him." I say biting my lip.

Even though it has been a good while since the whole Mon-el thing happened. I happen to compare everyone to him. Now that I'm not blinded to the fact I loved him, he was very much of a dick. And even though there were so many good memories with him, the bad ones always seem to creep up for some reason. He never listened to me...ever. I literally said not to tell anyone we were together and the first thing he did was tell everyone at the DEO. Of course at the time, I thought it was cute but now it's irritating because he still acted like a daxamite the majority of the time.

He holds this power over my dating life. It feels like I'll never feel anything close to the way I felt about him.

"I realized that this person...they're actually the reason I started coming out of that dark hole I was in. I realized that...w-when I was with this person, I stopped thinking about him. I never realized until recently but that hole feels slightly warm again...whole." I say and by the end I have a slight smile on my face thinking about her.

I remember all the way back when I was still shutting everyone out including Lena, she bought CatCo and convinced me to come back to work. I remember looking at photographs of Mon-el and I and texted her. She immediately responded with a red heart and it brought a smile to my face. The times I was smiling after everything were simply when I was with her. I've tried to act like I don't just sit around and think about her but all I ever do is think about her.

Alex listens to every word I say and then says herself, "I think Lena is the best thing for you Kara. She brings out a side of you that no one else can. She makes you a better person, but I can tell that you want to be a better person just for her—"

"Wait!" I say cutting her off. "I never told you it was about Lena?" I say scrunching my eyebrows together in confusion.

"Oh, please it's so obvious! Especially recently, god you guys are all over each other basically." She says taking a drink of her beer. "Not to mention that even when it had been months of you and Mon-el dating, you still never showed that much PDA like you do with Lena. The fact that you guys aren't dating is just crazy to me." She says making me feel better.

"Do you remember when you were so nervous about what to wear on a date? I told you to always go with blue and you chose the complete opposite. But when Lena's around you always seem to wear it, I guess I took that as a confirmation." She says laughing.

I do actually remember doing that. I'm not sure if I was doing it on purpose or not though.

"What should I do Alex?" I ask groaning throwing my head back. "She's my best friend, what if it's all in my head and I ruin everything between us?"

"You won't Kara. She loves you, just as much as you love her. She may not be in love with you yet but she loves you and I think she's just as afraid of losing you as you are her." She says wrapping an arm around me.

"Everything will work out."

Yeah I sure hope so...