Ravens pov
"I mean not necessarily like I told everybody else I love my momma with every inch of my being but there just some shit I'm not going for anymore
But she still can come see me whenever she wants and my phone works keeping a relationship is a two person job but I'm only gonna try if she does" it's currently
The next day and I'm laying in bed with Brandon and Payton telling them about everything that happened "I mean it makes sense that situation just sounds like a bad jawn all together"
I nodded "yeah I really was like sometimes I don't like being the only child so having a sibling to go to would have been great but they just fucking hate me and I will never know why
Like whatever are parents did to each other ain't got shit to do with the type of relationship we have so like what's good" Payton shrugged
"The little one's yeah don't don't have a reason not to like you but the older one she was the product of an affair and y'all are the same age so maybe people compare you to a lot
Your a goody two shoes,has amazing grades,and your beautiful your sister is also pretty but does she has grades like you is she as well behaved as you
Sometimes you just have to think about shit like that maybe the whole reason your sister doesn't like you is your moms fault when your always getting compared to someone that's how you stop liking them that's what happen to me and
My twin people would say she's the prettier twin,had better grades,worked harder than me it just gets annoying" I made a pouty face and turned around to her "awww baby is this why you dress like this now and I'm not trying to be disrespectful it's just a question"
She huffed and nodded "I mean kinda I was regular I didn't really like makeup and I wasn't that really into hair and so people called me a dyke my whole life so I just turned into a stud
But I mean I'm confident with myself now I don't give a fuck no more but my look just kinda stuck" I nodded "well I understand why you would be upset but I wasn't even around enough to have an impact on her growing up
But even if our mom was comparing us she should have smoke with her not me I have been nothing but nice to that girl our whole lives" they nodded "exactly your not around enough so it's hard not to blame you they are on a constant basis of trying to win there moms love and I'm pretty sure it being 3 of them
Your momma had a favorite weather if she says it or not so I'm just guessing by the way your mom is it was you your grades are perfect,your always in the house,you never talked back,you are just the perfect child
So every time they probably did something she would say something like why aren't you more like raven or raven would never do that comparing kids is the worst thing a parent can do" Brandon said
I nodded "but why didn't they just tell me so I could probably tell her to stop I mean I understand I'm technically the only child but it should be some way I could make them look at me differently
Because being the only child is not always luxury I will never know the feeling of having that sibling bond,having someone to go to,or even if I had a little sibling I never had that chance to be looked up to"
They nodded "I know but having siblings is not always luxury either you have someone to go to about things,talk to,and bond with but you also have to share your shit,fight over little things,and compete for your parents love"
I nodded "I know I hear it all the time from my cousins they both have siblings and they fight with them but I think it's cute even though if I was in there shoes it would drive me crazy having a sibling just seems like a hood problem to have"
They chuckled "I mean it is something me and my brother have it out sometimes but I love his dumbass" Brandon said which made Payton giggle "yeah me and my sister go at it but I'd literally fight the world behind her
But baby how about this how about you text your sister or find out when your mom is not gonna be home and try and talk to her see why she doesn't like you
So maybe y'all can build some type of bond and if she doesn't want to she can never say you didn't try" I nodded "shit maybe I will it wouldn't hurt to try"
*time jump*
"Hey slow down you got it" my dad said come to the steps of the basement hearing my crutches fall which made me laugh because I was fine I was scooting up the steps but my dad has been having mini
Heart attacks all week "yes I'm fine dad calm down" he huffed then picked me up off the ground like I didn't weigh anything then sat me on the bar stool "I still don't understand why you didn't wanna stay in the living room for a few days it's more convenient"
I shook my head "nah I like my room it's comfortable and it forces me to not be lazy" he rolled his eyes "whatever but what did you come up here for dinner won't be ready for another hour"
I huffed "is it crazy that I wanna build a relationship with my sister" my dad raised his eyebrow "which one" my mom has four kids me,Raya,Raylen,and River "Raya"
He looked at me crazy "and why would you wanna do something like that" I shrugged "this past weeks has had me thinking I really want a sibling but I was like I already have some but they hate me so I was gonna try and talk to Ray and see what her side was with me so I can hopefully squash it"
He nodded "well baby your old enough now to make your own decision so I'm not gonna stop you but just be careful ok" I nodded
"Always"
