Ravens pov
*BANG BANG BANG BANG* boy who the fuck is that banging on my door like they crazy I just left school like 2 hours ago and I'm sitting on my couch my dads are still at work so I'm home by myself
So I looked on my phone to see who was at the door and it was Payton and Brandon so I got up and went to go open the door and right when I got it open I was immediately grabbed off the ground and pinned to a wall
"WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU" Brandon said making me flinch "why are you yelling at me what did I do" Payton then touch his should as in telling him to calm down after a few deep breaths he finally did then sat me back in the floor
Then he went to go sit on my couch while Payton talked which I think is the best "ok Raven so we were told that you were caught talking to Tank before you left the game and they said you were flirting and touch up on him is that true"
I made a disgusted face and said "y'all gotta be the dumbest niggas I know if you believe some shit like that" they both looked at me still not looking like they believed me so I said "when I left the locker room I bumped into him by accident
Like literally walked into his body and fell he help me up off the floor and gave me a corny pick up like like this must be destiny or some shit because it wasn't our first encounter with each other
He tried to get my number for like a minute but I said no and said he should try talking to Jackie then I went home what the fuck are y'all talking about"
They both looked guilty after I finished my statement "when the game was over Jackie came up to us and told us you and Tank were flirting then you have him your number and left"
I just shook my head "you know what it's been about a week I really don't think we should be together and not just in a relationship I don't think we should be friends anymore either
Because it's clear I don't feel comfortable or safe anymore and y'all clearly don't even trust me so I think y'all should leave please"
Payton walked closer to me and Brandon started to walk off the couch towards me "seriously I fucking mean it I'm not joking y'all can't fix it this time GET OUT"
They both looked at me with apologetic eyes but it's to late well I've been knew I wanted to make this decision I just didn't know when I kept getting my judgment clouded by the good they would do
But I can't do it anymore so they looked at me for a few more seconds before walking out of my house and as soon as I heard the door close a tear fell
*time jump*
*ring ring ring ring*
"Hello" I sniffed and tears fell "please don't curse me out I just need someone to be here with me" my cousin looked in the camera and said
"You fucking did it didn't you bitch" I nodded "girl why the fuck would you do that" I shrugged "it was just a lot going on and I knew it was time I have been thinking about it to much and I just can't anymore
They are good beautiful people but I'm just not ready for the baggage that comes with them we are just pilot opposite they are cool I'm not
They go out to parties I like to stay in the house they would rather be outside and have fun I would rather paint inside they are perfect for each other and I've never met a couple so much alike but I don't think I fit in there dynamic"
My cousin just shook her head "girl I know you said you don't wanna hear it but I'm your cousin I'm going to always keep it a stack with you so ima tell you this stop being fucking scary
They like you they want you they care about you did you ever just sit and think they stop whatever their doing for you they take you to the places they feel most safe and they want to make you feel comfortable
You have to stop running from your problems or else your gonna be single forever every relationship comes with baggage but eventually your gonna have to unpack that shit
Fuck that bitch Jackie,fuck that coach and fuck whatever else might be bothering you you have a good thing going and your fucking it up
Now you better not call me anymore until you fix that shit ok" i took and just huffed nodding my head "ok"
She nodded "I know you Ray but it's time for you to grow up and start to digest life or else it's gonna swallow you whole I love you and remember what I said"
End call
I told that bitch I didn't wanna hear it I call that girl for advice and I get fucking slaughtered I already feel like shit and I'm already knowing that I have to go back to school tomorrow all alone with no fucking friends or anyone to talk to
But is it really bad if if I think I'm doing what's best for me
