Raven pov
"You act like your to good for a conversation like when say hi you put your head down, when people compliment you there's not thank you, and then we are sitting here trying to be your friend and be cool with you but you just like
Fuck them niggas why is that" I don't mean to come off stuck up it's just I don't know how to talk to people "I don't need friends but thank you though"
Brandon came over and made a face "so if you don't want friends who do you talk to everyday who do you express your feelings to" fine they want a conversation I'll give it to them because clearly my silence isn't enough
"Ok fine y'all want me to talk so bad fine I don't have friends because they are pointless as a person you go through dozens of people claiming to be your friend but In the end only have like one to two
I'd rather be alone then to go through that much drama" they looked intrigued as I talk which made them pull the chairs up and ask more questions
"So like you never had a friend like your whole life" Payton asked I nodded "I wouldn't call them friends but I guess if people don't come and talk to me first I just won't talk at all I don't like talking to people it makes me nervous"
"The thought of people make you nervous or talking" I shrugged "both when I really get to know or like a person ima very energetic and talkative but a lot of people don't like that
So I just don't get close to people and people who are bigger than me intimidate me because of my past issues so if I don't talk I can avoid confrontation and bullying"
They both looked taken back "not to sound like creepy or nun but your fine as fuck who would ever want to bully you" i just giggled "I'm 4'11 with big curly hair, thick square glasses, and braces I look like a cartoon nerd
The people at my old school had a field day with that I got called all types of thing" they still liked taken aback "like Brandon said not to sound creepy but all that shit is cute plus I be seeing you
Your style is on point, you have a fire whip and your thicker than cold grits I bet all the niggas loved you back where you was from" I turned bright red in the face
But shook my head "my dads make a good amount of money together so I lived in a predominantly white neighborhood and went to a predominantly white school
If your not a size zero with bone straight hair your the equivalent of Fiona from shriek
Boys just didn't like me and when i did hang around boy that found me attractive they only wanted me for my body or had a weird fetish about black girl which was a no go for me
I would rather be single" their mouths dropped "so your telling me you have never dated anyone like at all did you have your first kiss I mean you don't have to answer if you don't want to but like please answer" Payton said looking at me some type of way I couldn't put my finger on
I shook my head "nope I'm as pure as they come I could have done all this stuff but I think I just need to meet the right one" they both nodded then looked at each other still a look I couldn't pin point
"So do you like know your sexuality because seeing as though you never did anything like...." I shook my head "no not really I think everyone is attractive in their own way I appreciate a good looking man and a beautiful female so I guess it really just depends"
A really happy look came over both of their faces "and like what are you looking for in a person" they are really interested in me and I don't know why but I mean I guess
"Uhh I guess someone who is smart,funny,good looking,like food,has hobbies but also likes to be lazy sometimes I like a person who know how to have a good conversation but knows how to listen
Someone who can handle my excitement outbursts just a person who will love me for who I am without judgement and of course someone who supports the lgbtq+ community because your not meeting my dads if you a homophobe"
They both nodded and kept looking at each other back and forth so I finally asked "y'all I know y'all said y'all wanted to get to know me but like what's up with the back and forth looks
And asking all these relationship questions what are y'all up to"
They both let out a loud laugh which I didn't find ok because I'm still very deeply confused "well you have been at the school for about a week now
And we have been eyeing you but every time we try to get to know you
You shoot us down so we kinda ask the teacher to sit you with us for our project so we could ask you out"
I made a face "first off us and you barely know me what if I was a psychopath y'all wanted to come over to my house and stuff"
"Look we will explain everything if you just give us a yes or no answer it's kinda a complicated situation to unpack"
I'm getting very overwhelmed and my hands are sweating "y'all look can I have some time to digest everything that just happened to night I'm new to this whole making friends thing so can I give y'all an answer some other time"
The both looked at each other and nodded "yes but please just think about it"
