✨MY LIGHT IN THE DARK ✨ || JIKOOK ✅

19. (M) 🔞

JIMIN POV

Jimin laughed but it was a
happy sound.

"I wouldn't be surprised in
the least." he said.

I could tell he was excited for
Tae and hobi and maybe
relieved too, that they'd
figured things out.

"Do you think you'd ever want kids?" Jimin asked, almost absentmindedly.

It seemed his thoughts had gone the same direction mine had.

"I never did before." I murmured.

"But I never really thought
much about it, You know about how shitty my father is."

"How he used to be with me
and my dad, How he still is."

I took a deep breath and Jimin ran a hand over my side in an easy, comforting way.

"I grew up watching him belittle my omega dad, Watching him make my dad feel smaller and smaller. I never wanted that."

"Well, I never wanted that
for any child of mine, never wanted to bring that into my home but how could I not if
it's in my blood, you know?"

"And it's obviously there."

"I'm sure that's where my attraction to assholes comes from. I..." Jimin didn't seem
to be judging me.

I checked to make sure I wasn't pissing him off, even though I knew that was something in
my head and probably not a
way he would feel about this conversation.

"It's like the shittier a guy was, the more I'd want him at least for a rough round of sex."

"I grew up watching a relationship of abuse and mistreatment."

"I'm sure a therapist would
have a field day with me."

Jimin held me tighter.

"And yet, I've never seen you mistreat your friends and the people you love and you were attracted to me, right?"

"And I hope I don't count as
one of those assholes."

Jimin forced some humor into
his voice and I appreciated the way he tried so hard to cheer
me up but I just wasn't certain about anything in my life beyond us, right here, in this bed.

I understood where he was coming from, understood that yes, I didn't have to turn into
my father, that I was a different person but inside there was still that fear that I'd turn into the only thing my father ever
passed down to me.

I focused on Jimin's earnest
face, kind eyes and the mouth
I loved so much.

Maybe he had a point.

I lo— ...I was attracted to Jimin.

He was a good alpha in my
life and if he wanted me, I had
to have some good inside of
me, too.

With someone as supportive as Jimin at my side, I could see growing a baby in my stomach.

I knew the specifics of giving birth and while I wasn't excited about that part, I would love holding a baby in my arms
that had his hazel eyes.

I'd like taking a little kid to the park with him to play and listening to him read stories
to our little one at night.

"I'd never thought of it before but now that you and I are together, it's something I may want." I admitted softly to him.

He kissed me in response and it felt like some sort of promise.

"When I've put Jiwoo away, I want to come back to this conversation."