✨MY LIGHT IN THE DARK ✨ || JIKOOK ✅

30.

JIMIN POV

When I got home I went
straight to Jungkook, who
was sitting at the dining room table working on his laptop.

I pulled him up from the seat
and kissed him immediately.

I was expecting Jungkook
to melt into my arms like
usual but this time he held himself away from me, not
quite pulling back but almost.

Completely thrown and
worried, I stepped back myself.

"Baby, is everything
good?" I asked.

Jungkook looked down, not meeting my eyes.

My heart started to pound.

I couldn't lose the panicked feeling I'd carried around
lately that Jungkook was
slipping away from me.

I'd thought that maybe it was just me being anxious over
the case but he seemed to
be feeling it, too.

I couldn't lose him to the
stress from my job and
the threat constantly
hanging over us.

I couldn't.

It didn't look like he was
going to start talking and
truth be told, I already knew what he'd say, knew what
was wrong.

How could a healthy
relationship thrive under a constant threat of harm,
of danger?

How could a new relationship grow alongside fear,
frustration and a never-
ending list of things to do
for the case from hell?

Right then and there I
decided that, if I couldn't
solve the case overnight for
Jungkook, if I had no control over Jiwoo or when we
caught him, at least I could change my own behavior.

I could make sure I was
around more.

I could make sure he knew
how much he came first,
how I was doing this for him.

So I did.

"Let's go to Aspen." I
whispered to him, pulling
him close against me despite
the tension in his body.

I was going to get rid of it if
it was the last thing I did.

I only hoped it wasn't the
last thing.

I hoped I could have many
more years of loving and living with this man in my arms.

So I whisked him away for a romantic weekend in Aspen.

My family had always rented
this one particular cottage
and somehow even though
it was still summer, I was
able to book it last minute
for the weekend.

I wanted him to have the
kind of experience I had
when I came to the house
in the summers.

The feeling of the world fading away until all that's left is the sound of nature, the sound
of the people you brought with you, those you loved enough
to bring into this space.

Fear and stress seem far
away there.

Jungkook seemed wary but willing to go.

He complained that he had too much work to do but he was always like that, wanting to
finish his degree, feeling how close it was and how much
he was only months away
from succeeding.

I was happy for him and fully supported him but I still
thought this weekend away would do us both good.

When we arrived though, I figured out why we'd been
able to book it on such short notice.