✨MY LIGHT IN THE DARK ✨ || JIKOOK ✅

34.

JUNGKOOK POV

After the day in the station when Jiwoo turned up, Jimin and I
had been closer than ever.

I went straight from work at
the hospital the one component of my course I hadn't been
able to delay or switch to
online for this semester
even if I was in danger
and then directly to the
station to be with him.

It was like neither of us could handle being out of each
other's sight or we didn't
want to be two people any
more, we just wanted to be us.

But we couldn't yet.

We hadn't been able to talk about our future, which I
knew now we both wanted.

We hadn't been able to talk about the baby I could feel
us think about when we
would each place our hands
over my stomach after
making love each night,
wishing that we could plan.

But we couldn't plan, we
couldn't talk about it, we
couldn't throw away the condoms, none of it yet
because our tomorrow
wasn't guaranteed.

There was always a chance
we'd never have another
day with each other
but that was different.

Understanding the uncontrollability of life, understanding the possibility
of it all ending, that was
different than actually having
a sword hanging over both
our heads, waiting for it to
fall or to see if we could
get out from under it first.

And neither of us felt
comfortable making plans or moving forward with our lives, until that sword was gone.

They were working hard
on the case.

Jih was working almost obsessively to get Jiwoo,
both for himself as someone who'd been hurt by Jiwoo
and for us too.

It meant the world to me
that Jimin had friends who'd
go to such lengths for him.

Especially now because
now Jimin was off the case.

Well, mostly.

After Jiwoo had had his men killed in a high security prison while Jimin listened helplessly
on the phone, he had been
more concerned than ever
about my safety and
apparently I was enough
for him to leave it all behind.

Jimin had gone right in the next day and withdrawn as much
as he could from the case.

He wasn't all the way out
but he wasn't lead anymore
and Jih didn't fill him in on
much either, keeping him in
the dark about everything
except the essentials, for
both our safety.

I was still a bit in shock
that he'd do it.

That after all the months of
going after Jiwoo, after all
the personal reasons he
wanted to nail this man to
the wall, he'd finally stepped back to keep me safe.

I knew it bothered him to not know what was going on,
not have all the information,
not be able to lead the case
or go on the raids.

Jimin wouldn't be there when Jiwow was caught.

He assured me it was worth it, though and that I did believe.

Because he made me know, every day how much more important I was to him
and our future, than this case.

And that's what he said he wanted to protect at all costs.

That's what he'd give any
thing to win, that's what he
kept saying and I believed him.

October had rolled around without us noticing somehow.

With all the stress about the
case and the death threats,
there wasn't much time to
realize weeks had been
and gone before we'd
even said hello to them.