HOW YOU LIKE THAT | JENLISA

Chapter 77

Jennie

Grace Manoban

September 29th

I'm heartbroken. Completely shattered.

I tried to kill Lorna. I can't imagine how low I would stoop. I was about to kill a human being out of jealously!

What if my children finds out the truth? They would think that I'm a monster! But I'm not. Loving your husband is not a crime.

I wanted revenge for all the deceit that they have been feeding me with. Suddenly, I'd become this evil person who would do anything to make sure that the two of them won't be happy. I want to destroy them.

If I can't have Chris, neither can Lorna.

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October 1st

I poisoned her coffee.

I shouldn't have done that, but I did.

And Lorna survived. She didn't drink the coffee and gave it to the other maid instead, who died.

They know that I did it. They know that I tried to kill her and she has threatened to call the media because she knows the police department would brush this matter underneath the carpet. She knew that no one in town would ever dare touch a Manoban. We are invincible. We have power that's beyond her understanding.

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October 4th

I have to leave. I have to disappear before she takes the news to the media and destroys me.

Dad would understand. Lisa and Bambam would know the truth. They are wonderful children and I guess that I will have to accept my losses.

Lorna will be a good mother to them. I know that I said she was evil, but really... I think when I see her now and how much I've caused her pain, I think I'm the evil one. All this while as I was plotting her demise, trying to poison her, she's been calm and looked hurt. She apologised to me and asked for mercy.

She says we could co-exist. She would never take Chris' affections for herself and she wants to continue the arrangement the way that it was. Chris would continue to live in the mansion with me, Nichkhun and Sorn would still be my children, but Chris would also visit her occasionally.

She wants to share.

She wants to share the man that I thought was only mine. I'm beyond hurt. I'm dying inside. I can't take this anymore and so I'm going to leave. I want my children to know that I love them with everything that I have.

Lisa and Bambam would grow up to be powerful people. They would live up to the Manoban name. And as for Nichkhun and Sorn, I wish them well, too. I want them to succeed.

It's too bad that I won't be here to see it.

This will be my last journal entry. I loved you, Chris, and forgive me for all the pain that I have caused you.

I can't do this anymore.