Guardian Angel

Understanding the emotions

Castiel's POV

It was a few days later, well, nights actually, when I had finally managed to finish helping the Winchesters with their demon problem and I found myself back in her room once again. I found it comforting when I heard the soft snoring and, because of my angel abilities I could see her face clearly. As I stared down at her a smile appeared, she's so beautiful my mind told me, and I once again wondered how it was possible to feel this way. I knew now that I was possibly in love with her, but I still didn't understand how as I believed that we angels didn't have these kind of feelings. These human emotions.

I knew that because I had been spending more time with the Winchesters and their friendship it was probably what was teaching me how to be more natural, more human. I was becoming more human with my thoughts and emotions and that was when I came to the realisation that I shouldn't come here anymore. I made my choice then that tonight would be the last time. I had become.......what was it that Sam had said, "Don't keep going there Cas, you're sounding like a stalker", and I knew it wasn't what I wanted to be.

I decided that I needed to talk to Heaven and ask them some questions. I flew from her room and arrived up in Heaven. Since Jack had come up here, he had made changes that was comforting to a lot of the souls that arrived. We no longer had doors with people's names, we had a whole world that matched Earth so closely.

I found that I was standing in an area surrounded by trees, the ground was covered in rocks and a small stream that trickled slowly by. I took a couple of deep breaths and rubbed my face with my hands. I turned and started pacing not sure what I should do. As I turned around to walk back the other way, I noticed that I wasn't alone. I stopped and met the eyes of the concerned hunter "Got a problem Cas?" he asked me.

Sitting in the fold-out camping chair was Robert 'Bobby' Singer. His cargo pants, tee-shirt and plaid shirt all looking dirty and dusty. The baseball cap had seen better days, but I knew he would never change it. "Bobby?"

The hunter didn't say anything to me he just stared at me with his questioning look, and I knew that he wanted me to tell him what my problem was. I didn't know if I should tell him as I remembered how telling Sam and Dean didn't go to plan. As I stood there looking at the older human though I realised that he would have probably been a better person to talk to than Sam, and especially better than Dean.

"Did you know that Heaven still sends guardian angels to watch over people?" I asked him.

He shook his head, but still, he didn't speak. I assumed he was waiting for me to continue with my concern, so I did.

"I was sent down to watch over someone" I paused a moment, took a breath, and said, "a woman actually."

I saw his eyebrows raise and he didn't turn away as he said, "She causing you an issue?"

I frowned at him, tilting my head to the side, wondering how he could possibly know that. He gave a slight chuckle and said, "If you are supposed to be guiding her then can I assume she isn't following your advice?"

"Yes, and no" I said straightening my head, and then added "Do you think it's possible for an angel to feel human emotions?"

The minutes ticked by as he just sat there staring at me. Then slowly I saw the biggest grin make its way across his lips before he said "Other angels, yes, but not you Cas. I believe you do feel human emotions" He looked out across the water, taking a few breaths then turned back to me as he said, "Yes, even love Cas."

I didn't know what to say. Bobby had just agreed with me. He just told me what I had thought I had been feeling was exactly what I was feeling. He was saying that I was feeling the human emotion. That I was indeed falling in love with Y/N. Or maybe I already was in love with her?