Guardian Angel

Stay Castiel

Y/N's POV

I had finished work for the day and gone back to my apartment to gather some more clothes and things as I had decided to stay in the bunker for a couple of days. I had even taken tomorrow off work as I had decided to spend some time with Castiel, try to get to know him and see if I was interested in pursuing things. I had almost asked him to stay with me in the room last night, but my nerves got the better of me and I didn't do it. I know I felt better when he was around, safer, but we had only had that brief conversation about the angels and not talked about our feelings. Are you admitting that you do have feelings for him? I questioned myself. Yes, I believe I do feel something for Castiel. That was why I had asked him this morning if he would spend a couple of days with me at the bunker so we could talk properly, get to know each other. Maybe I could then become brave enough to ask him to stay with me?

I had gotten everything I needed and was about to leave when I noticed my dream journal on my bedside table. I picked it up and opened it up to a random page. I was looking at it when I heard the flutter of wings and Castiel appeared in front of me. I saw that he looked down at the book then at me and his face held a look that said to me he was guilty of something.

Why was he guilty? What did he do? I looked at the book, then realised. He read this journal! Oh my God. "Castiel, did you read this?" I questioned, even though I knew the answer.

"I'm sorry. One time I came here and I couldn't find you so....I thought it was an appointment book"

He looked so upset and I knew it wasn't that he had been caught out doing something he shouldn't have, it was more the fact that he had read it. I couldn't help the smile as I watch him trying to give me reasons for snooping. Finally, he looked up and frowned "You're not mad?"

"I can't say I I'm not a little disappointed, but it's only a dream journal. It's not like there are any secrets I don't want you to know."

His frown deepened, "I thought you would be-" he stopped and looked like he was trying to think of a word and then he said, "embarrassed."

I shook my head, "Why? They are only dreams and nightmares".

"Of me" he said simply, and I glared at him unsure of what he was saying. "The man in your dreams, it is me."

I shook my head, "Sam said the same thing the other day, but how do I dream of someone I haven't met? I mean I 've been having these dreams for- "

"Five months" Castiel stated as a matter of fact, interrupting me "When I started coming here. When I became your guardian angel"

I looked at the book in my hands and then back at him. I don't know why I hadn't believed Sam, or Castiel, but they were both right. The man in my dreams had indeed been him. I could see his face clearly in the dreams now. It was indeed Castiel that I had been dreaming of. The man who loved me and whom I loved, but he wasn't a man, he was an angel. How had I dreamt of him before I had met him though? How could I even dream about someone that I was in love with, if I didn't even know they existed before we met?

I was about to ask him what he thought about me dreaming about him, but I hesitated as I watched the uneasy look on his face and I questioned him again, "What aren't you telling me Castiel?"

He licked his lips and stared at the journal in my hands. I thought he wasn't going to say anything, but then he said, "I don't know if you noticed, but those nights when you had the nightmares" I stared into his eyes, seeing his doubt, but he continued with what he was saying, "Those nights were the ones that I wasn't in your room"

I almost chuckled at the thought that Castiel had chased away my bad dreams. I guess him being there was a comfort to me. If I only had the nightmares because he wasn't in the room, then I had to change that. Now that I knew Castiel was the man in my dreams I knew that I didn't want to see him being killed again. I was slightly unsure, but I decided I had to at least ask "Castiel" he looked up at me and I said, "Can you please stay with me tonight?"