Eastenders - An addition to the carters

Suicide

Micks POV
"Right, I'm gonna put Oliver to bed now, baby" I said to linda. It was now 3:00 pm, we had been talking for 2 and a half hours and becky has been upstairs for half hour.
I made my way up stairs and put Oliver to bed and I knocked on Beckys door.
"I didn't mean what I said, becks. I know you've been through a bad time. sorry" I said but she didn't answer.
"Fine. ignore me under my own roof." I scolded. I don't know why she's ignoring me, she really is being pathetic.
I went into the kitchen to wash up when I found Beckys phone. I read her text message from her old mum and my god was It bad. I felt a rage build up inside of me but then I saw a note. I took the note in my shaking hands and read it.
"To whoever reads this,
My life hasn't been anything good, and it will never be. I've experienced things I shouldn't of seen and I've done stuff I shouldn't of done. I just want to let you know, whoever you maybe, that I do love you, I love all my family even in the short time I've known you we're family. I've ruined your lives and it's quite obvious nobody wants me, and I don't blame you. I don't know if you've thrown this away or if you're still reading this but yes, this is a suicide note. I hope the best for baby Oliver and everyone's future, just please, let me go.
I love all of ya, and I always will. Becky xxx"
I dropped the note and looked at the cup which had a tiny bit of water left at the bottom.
I sprinted to her bedroom and banged on the door.
"Becky!" I shouted.
"Becky open the door now!"
"Linda!" I called.
"Linda, quickly!" I shouted as I kicked the door down. I ran over to becky who hardly had her eyes open.
"No, no, no. becky why?" I cried. I've never cried so Much in my life. I hugged her as she was laying on her bed and rocked her back and foward, trying to keep her awake. my tears were soaking her t-shirt as I cried.
"Keep your eyes open baby. please, for me" I sobbed.
"Mick" she whispered
"I'm here it's okay, stay awake" I cried.
"Let me go. let me die" she whispered.
"No no I'm not gonna do that, you're my little sister and I love you, I need you in this family, we all do". she started to close her eyes.
"Linda!" I shouted, louder.
"What's up?" She asked, coming down the hallway.
"Call an ambulance now"
"Oh no mick, what have you done becky" she worried dialling the ambulance ouside the room.
"You can't go now, I've always wanted a little sister" I looked down and saw that she was closing her eyes.
"Becky keep your eyes open baby" I said quietly. I saw Linda walking up
And down the corridor in frustration and worried. this was all happening to fast.
"When I found out you were my sister, I was so happy. you mean the world to me baby. I wouldn't be so happy without you. please" I cried. "please"
I pushed my cheek on the top of her head and stroked her arm as I kept shaking her to keep her awake.
"When is this ambulance coming L? She's going and I can't keep her here any longer. she's gonna die" I broke down even more. Linda came running in, hugging the other side of becky and stroking her hair. becky reached her hands out and cupped Linda's face.
"Thankyou" she whispered. her eyes closed.
"No darling, keep awake" Linda said, shakily. L was crying and tapping Beckys cheek. I laid becky on her back and pick her up bridal style.
"Quickly L, we need to get her to the ambulance, she's unconscious." I jogged down the stairs, trying not to bang Beckys head on anything.
"Dad what's wrong with her?" Nancy asked
"Just open the door for me nance"
I rushed her into the ambulance with Linda running behind me.
"What's her name? Age?" One of the paramedics asked.
"Becky carter, 15" Linda said. Linda grabbed my hand and looked at me, terrified. I wiped my tears away as I stepped in the ambulance.
"Lee, look after this place, we might not be coming home until tomorrow"