Eastenders - An addition to the carters

Too much

It's been two weeks since we found out the results of the DNA test. Phil knows an I've told Liam. everything has stayed the same, but when I see Phil when I'm out he offers to buy me dinner or some kindof food.
Dean has found out that he has a daughter called jade a week ago and Shirley and dean are seeing her regularly now. I feel jealous. jealous of jade. only because Shirley is spending more time with her than me and she doesn't text me as much and when she's out with her in the square and she sees me, she just ignores me. usually she'll follow me around for a bit. Shirley was quite clingy to me before jade, because she wants to restore her trust with me. but now it's just jade. I love jade, I do. she's a lovely girl but Shirley spends all her money on her and not her real kids. she only really cares about dean and whatever links to dean.
I can feel all of this drama driving me insane. keeping the whole thing about phil a secret from Sharon, dean and buster is driving me mad. the whole jade thing is driving me mad. Shirley and dad are still arguing and that's driving me mad. I can feel it all eating away inside of me.
Right now I'm in the café, ordering myself a cuppa tea to settle myself down. I was stood up by the bar.
"Can I have a tea please? Milk no sugar please" I smiled. I waited.
"i caught cindy underneath Liam's bed this morning" I heard carol say behind me. I focused more in what she was talking about.
"Ain't he with becky?" Sonya asked. I felt a rage of anger inside of me but I kept calm and carried on listening.
"I know. I'm guessing they're been sleeping together, behind Beckys back" carol whispered. Weirdly I didn't flip out. but tears filled me eyes and I stormed out of the shop and back into the pub, crying like never before.
"We don't wanna see you and your ugly son anywhere near this pub" dad shouted at shirley. Dad looked at me and stared, so did mum, dean and Shirley. I felt angered about everything and sad about liam and also embarresed that everyone was staring at me. It's awful.
"You alright baby?" Dad asked me. my breathing increased and I could stop it. I put my hand onto my chest and sat down. everyone was still staring at me and being quiet.
"Becky-" mum reached her hand out on my shoulder but I got up and stumbled upstairs, still breathing uncontrollably.

Micks POV
"L, go check if she's okay" I said. I'm worried about becky, everything that's been going on lately. Linda passed olly to Nancy and rushed to becky upstairs.
"Look, you're messing everything up. you're driving becky nuts, she can't stand you" I scolded dean.
"She's not even your daughter, she's mine" Shirley defended.
"No!" I shouted.
"She's just your sister, like she's mine!" dean shouted.
"It's more than just blood" I whispered.
"What?" Shirley asked.
"Just get out, the pair of you!" I shouted.
It took them about 15 seconds for them to leave. how dare they come here after everything. they're putting too much pressure on becky.
"Mick!" I heard Linda shouting.
"It's becky!"