my diary

the 15th of march 2023

WE'VE OFFICIALLY MADE IT PAST A MONTH OF WRITING!!!! WOOOO

thats a whole accomplishment lmaooo

today, ive had 2 accomplishments, one i just told yall, the other is another big breakthrough in my endurance! lemme tell u what happened, as im really proud. this morning i had snorkle lessons again, and we had to swim underwater (without flippers) as far as we could, and then do it again with flippers on. well, i got a new personal record in both!!!! the pool i have the lessons in is 25 meters long, and without flippers i swam the whole thing!! that like, super good! and with flippers, i did 1.5 times the pool! so around 37.5 meters! which for comparison, 25 meters is 12.5 times mikey, and 37.5 is 18.25 times mikey (: thats pretty far- but well, that was only the start of the lesson, and i had used up all my energie, couldnt breathe very easily or deep, and was seeing stars and black spot due to a lack of bloodsugar. but i knew i had to push through (thi sounds way to epic lmaooo) and complete the whole thing, if i wanted to succeed with what i was doing. i pushed through, almost went out in the water too many times to count, everything in me was screaming to stop, but i did it. i got to the end of the lesson without drowning, blacking out, or chickening out. i am legit so happy, and i am really proud of myself. i am also really angy (i say angy bc im not really very angry, just confused) at one of the instructors and my brother. we were doing backstroke, and the stupid little fucker hit his head at the edge of the pool xD so then the instructor came running, and me brother was crying, and meanwhile im blacking out and half dying not even one mikey length away :,) (and yes, i am using mikey length to messure now, although im dutch, anything but the metric system xD) so that was sadge

anyhow, today was a double mikey stream! i loved it, was really nice to hear da voice again, and just kinda vibe and talk. now that we are talking about mikey, my brain has been doing some weird stuff lately- like, my brain cant handle that the person messaging me on dc and the voice and face are one and the same peep- im so confusedddddd help me- any doctors who know whats going on? or maybe its just exitement for comic con or something, but i just cant wrap my brain around the simpelest shit anymore-

i also have a very sad message. today, on april 15th, would have been Mkenna's brithday. for those who dont know, Mkenna was lizos lovely doggo. but, today would have been her birthday, and lizo is feeling quite down about it. sending all my love to lizo, and Mkenna ofc <3 Mkenna will always be remembered <3

that has been it for today, see yall tomorrow <33

and do not forget to eat, sleep, and hug loved ones :3