Just About Me

tics?

? I'm thinking about they/it

TW: mentions tics and describing them talking about weight

I think I have tics, not tourettes I haven't discovered any vocal tics yet and they haven't been going on very long. one of them is my left eye will repeatedly shut and my head will turn towards the right or it doesn't repeatedly shut and just blinks and turns to the right. (writing about this is kinda setting them off). another one is I will just hit myself mainly around the head. I think they are worse when I'm cold and anxious because we had our district music contest today and they were really bad when we got back to school cuz we only had one bus for our choir and I was sitting by people who I don't like so I anxiety. I think only noticed them around a week ago maybe, so they might go away. other people's tics or talking about them doesn't really set them off just sounds. 

the thing is idk if I actually have them or if I'm masking because I have friends with tics/tourettes and I find myself when I sometimes tic copying the sounds they sometimes make because of the tics. but before you go and judge me and say I'm faking there is normally a feeling that comes before I tic so I kind of know I'm going to do it. 

sorry, I haven't been writing I just kinda followed the dopamine and it was not at the story. all 3 of our DMC(district music contest) judges voted us a 1 (which is good) for both choir and band. we slayed today. 

I have gained like 10 pounds from wrestling. I also found out I'm allergic to latex I had latex rubber bands for my Invisalign and it started to make my mouth itchy and that used to happen before I learned I was allergic to kiwi and would drink strawberry kiwi Caprisuns. so know i got latex free ones.