Hailee Steinfeld oneshots

Running

A/n: i've been listening to running by nf too much so i decided to make a oneshot abt it. Hope yall enjoy it!

Summary: Running

Wc: 800

Warnings: arguing
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Hailee and I have been drifting apart lately, and neither of us want to admit it. It hurts to admit it but we both know its true.

Currently, we're in our living room. Previous to this we had yet another argument. We're sitting across each other, as we both silently cry.

"Hailee?" I speak up and Hailee hums, flickering her teary hazel eyes towards me "I'm tired of holding on to this relationship that isn't even healthy" I whisper, my voice breaking "I think it's time to let go and say our goodbyes" I add as tears run down my cheeks.

"No, Y/n please we can fix this" Hailee shales her head, as tears stain her cheeks "please I love you" she whispers

"I love you too Hailee, but not enough to allow you to continue to drown the both of us" I say, in a more serious as my eyes pierce through hers

"What? I'm not drowning us. Don't try to convince me that I'm the real issue, when you're the root to every problem" Hailee defensively expresses, her voice rising

"Hailee your doing it right now! You're holding me back, you're pulling me down! You're making me hate myself!" I say as my tone of voice matches hers

"I make you hate yourself?" Hailee quietly says

"Yeah sometimes, after our fights" I respond as I fidget with ring on my fingers

"I'm sorry, please don't leave me" Hailee sobs

"I don't want to leave, but that's what I need. I have no choice I-i can't just let you deceive and make me believe that I don't deserve to be loved." I say as silent sobs leave my body. A flash of sadness and anger spreads across Hailees face

"I never said you don't deserve to be loved Y/n" Hailee whispers, her voice flashing with a hint of anger

"Yeah you did" I nod as a memory of one of our fights comes back

"Y/n you know I didn't mean it it was a stupid fight" She smiles, trying to change the atmosphere in the room "just have a little faith in us. Please" she pleads

"Hailee I'm not gonna stand aside and watch you attempt to rob and steal and sabotage the little faith I have left" I shout a little loudly. She tried this before, the whole have a little faith speech. It worked last time but this time I'm not letting her walk all over me again.

"Y/n we have to make sacrifices and if--" she starts but I cut her off

"Sacrifices?!" I shout in disbelief "haven't I sacrificed enough for you?!" I shout now standing up and running a hand through my hair in anger "I left my fucking family Hailee to come live with you! I quit my fucking job for you! So don't talk to me about sacrifices!" I shout at Hailee who is now stood up, only a few feet away from me. "And I did all of that because I fucking love you. I love you to death Hailee, but I can't spend the rest of my life in this darkness. I'm done. I'm fucking done of running form you. From us" I shout as tears stream down my cheeks. Hailee looks at me with hurt eyes, as she lets more of her tears out.

I hate seeing her cry. I hate being the one making her cry, but it's time to let go and say our goodbyes. I'm not spending the rest of my life running. As much as I love her and want to be with her I want to learn to love myself again.

I've always been scared of who I would be if I said goodbye and I didn't have her anymore. One thing I didn't know is that without her I would be myself. I would be me again.

"I'm gonna miss you Hailee, but I'm done. We're done" I finally say. I start to move past her to the front door since she just stayed silent.

"I love you Y/n" Hailee whispers just before I reach the door

Ignoring her words I slip out of the house into the empty streets. Cold air greets my skin, making me shiver a little bit. As I stand on the porch I'm unsure of where to go next.

I can't go home because Hailee is my home, and I'm not making that mistake again.
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A/n: yall go listen to the song it's amazing. Anyway hope yall enjoyed! Stay safe my loves and don't forget to comment, vote and request! Love yaaa! Byeeeee!