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I sighed after I read Jungkook's last message. Aish, what should I do?
I remembered too well our exchange of conversation last night before we kissed and I slept on him. I was asking him to give me 1000 reasons why I should get back to him. He's saying all the right things but I don't know if I can trust those words. If I can trust him again.
I know deep inside my heart, I still have some feelings for him. No matter how hard I forget, he has a big part in my life. We've known each other since we were kids. I've cherished him for so long. And I don't know if that fact could overcome the fear of loving him again.
I've just been hurt too many times because of him. Could I still take it if I get hurt more?
I shook my head and tried to whisk away those thoughts. I don't want to be swayed just because we kissed. I regretted being so weak. It shouldn't have happened but it did.
It's getting harder to avoid him. To avoid the feelings.
My phone suddenly rang. It's Seojun. I bit my lips. Another person who's saying and showing all the right things for me to try to love again.
"Hello?" I said upon answering.
"Hi, Iseul! Is it true? They've found Raon?" He excitedly asked. I sent him a message earlier and already told him the news.
"Yes, they have! I'm waiting for the call from the embassy. They said they could arrange a phone call so we can talk." I replied.
"Damn, that's great! Finally!" He chuckled. "I'm so glad. And I know how relieved you are right now. Raon is fine. Thank heavens."
"Yes, thank heavens! I can't wait to see her again. I won't be fully okay until she's back here with us." I told him.
"Yeah, I know what you mean. Let's just hope they fly her back asap."
"She's with Jae, too." I reminded him.
"Ah, yes. That's good. I hope she already told him about Da-eun." He said.
"Maybe she already did," I said. "Anyway, I'll take Sungmi and Da-eun out. We've been inside the apartment for so long so it'll be great to celebrate the news outside."
"Just you, Sungmi and Da-eun?" He asked carefully and I knew right away what he was implying.
"Yes, Seojun. Just us three. Jungkook won't be coming." I told him.
"Hmmm, I wasn't...fine, I was curious. Good to know that he's not with you." He said. There was a quick pause before I talked again.
"We got to go, Seojun..."
"Yeah, sure. Have fun. Hope to see you all soon. Call me when you are able to talk to Raon."
