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Seeing Jungkook again here in LA was both a blessing and a curse.
I loved that I got to spend time with him and my parents. I loved that I got to hold him near me.
But that's also the curse.
Every day, I yearn for his presence more and more. I miss having him around me. I miss hanging out with him. I miss telling him stories and nonsense things. I miss hearing him sing random songs and making me dance with him. I miss him rambling about his day.
I miss him being hyper, annoying, and naughty.
I miss lying down with him. I miss kissing him. I miss how our bodies connect more than ever.
The more days we are apart, the more I want to be with him again.
But I couldn't.
There were so many things I was required to complete. The marketing team wanted to further our efforts in making the game more present in the gaming industry. There's an instant clamor for the developer--that's me--to be in the scene. I don't even know how I was able to do it. I'm more of the behind-the-scene guy.
Maybe it's because of the news of me and Jungkook, but more people had been curious about me as much as they're interested in the game itself. Our social media platforms were swamped with off-topic comments, asking about my relationship with him.
There were a lot of positive messages but we can't stop anti's from spreading harsh and threatening words.
It's a lot to clean up. But it's still publicity.
Short video interviews were scheduled. Even magazine covers. I was an instant celebrity and I tried to veer away from mentioning anything about Kook and the rest of the members. Which I figured they would want to get.
My team was also busy making the gaming experience more seamless and enjoyable. We've begun to simulate again and do more troubleshooting. Our brains get exhausted trying to perfect the game more.
And then I was given another project, another team, to work on the idea I pitched in.
Things piled up in exchange for what I was about to do.
I've decided to leave the company and put up my own in Seoul.
And Seojun had been nothing but a hindrance to my goals. He wanted me to do all the things I've mentioned before I'm granted freedom. I've met with my lawyer and really, my contract with the company cannot stop me from executing my plans.
I've set up a meeting with the board to discuss this and Seojun can't stop me. I am willing to do what's expected of me but there's nothing that could keep me from going back to Seoul.
In the midst of this, I've been in constant communication with Jiah. She's the first one that I talked to about my plans. I respect her expertise in the field of business that's why I reached out for ideas and suggestions. I also asked for her help in executing my next steps.
