NEVER THOUGHT

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I sniffed as I looked down at folded paper in my hands before tears came down and I cried quietly.

I grabbed some tissue that was in the car and lightly dabbed under my eye lids before holding it and looking up trying to blink away the tears that was finna come down since I had on makeup.

"Fuck." I mumbled unfolding the letter again.

"Are you okay miss?" The driver asked.

"Yes i'm okay, Thank you." I looked at him through the rear view mirror and looked back down.

It's like every time i think i'm moving toward a good relationship something always happens that makes me second guess myself.

Reading that letter he wrote made me feel so bad especially when I know how genuine of a person he is and how everything he said was true.

Mykel has always been there for me after a tuff situation even after we weren't dealing with each other no more. He was there for me when D2 did wrong by me, when me and Siah broke up, and he literally flew me out to him just so i can have a clear mind after he allowed me to cry in his arms because of Keilan.

I was honestly scared of getting into something serious with Mykel after the abortion situation especially when he basically told me that he only agreed to the abortion so I can be happy. In reality he didn't want the abortion to happen but he still considered my feelings and understood why i didn't want to bring a baby into this world that way.

I felt like i didn't deserve a person like him but i still wanted a friendship with him because of how good of a person he was alone.

I was contemplating on texting him letting him know that i read the letter. After giving it some thought i pulled out my phone.

Once i seen that he was typing i hurried up and exited the message. When I heard my phone ding i looked at my notifications to see his response.