When I woke up this morning my throat was soar and my nose was stopped up. I felt so drained and tired and my head was hurting so bad.
"You sure you need to go to the studio?" Mykel asked me as he walked back in my house from going to the store.
"I need to finish my album i got a deadline." I mumbled while rubbing my throat looking to my left before grabbing my purse, laptop, and my book in my other hand.
"You need to slow down and take a break, you always at the studio. And you need to eat some, hm." He put a Zaxby's bag on the island table.
"Thank you but i'm not hungry." I said before covering my mouth to cough and right when i was about to walk past him he gently grabbed my arm.
"Aubrie, sit down you need to eat." He said and looked at him before sitting down grabbing the container that was inside the bag.
"And take this after you done." He pulled a box of benadryl out of a walgreens bag. "It's cough drops in there too." He mumbled.
"Thank you."
"You wanna talk about last night?" He asked and I nodded my head.
"I'm listening." He put his phone down.
"I don't know i just feel like i'm the reason why i be disappointed sometimes. I only be happy for a moment it's not a continuous thing and i don't like the situations i get myself in." I explained.
"I really did take what you said into consideration and I agree."
"I have the mindset where i'm always tryna prove something to others to impress and even though i don't want to admit it i seek validation, not male validating but validation in general and that's part of the reason why i'm in messed up situations." I said while picking at my bread.
"You feel better getting that out don't you?" He asked and I nodded.
"See i told you, as long you take that type of acknowledgment and ownership you'll feel better. It's just the first step." He said.
"Yeah..." I mumbled.
"I think it's better to just get stuff off your chest verbally." He said.
"I did that though but when i express myself i don't think people hear me for real so i just shut up well up until now." I said.
"It's just the delivery of how things are said, it can give off a different vibe or perspective of where you coming from. Not saying that the way you express is wrong but how they respond to it is what i'm tryna explain." He said.
" That's why when i'm talking to you i don't yell or speak aggressively cause it don't cause for all that."
"If i want you to understand where im coming from andnot be offended i'm not gone respond to you in a crazy manner cause that's giving off two different vibes." He continued.
"So when you express yourself and they make it a problem and can't control they tone that's how you take offense and it turn into an argument. I'm grown i'm not finna argue wit somebody because of how they feel, it's they perspective i can't tell nobody how to feel i gotta respect it." He shrugged.
"Yeah i gotta work on how i talk to people too i can admit that." I said. "
"You can't talk to somebody that's not tryna listen to you for real." He said.
"I like talking to you though you give good feedback." I shrugged. "Only other person that gave me advice while calling me out respectfully and still got a sense of where i was coming from is my dad so..." I trailed
