ROAMING THE EARTH | JYH

13. Let's date

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A date was a terrible idea. Bad, bad idea. I feel sick to my stomach and all I want to do is throw up.

"Let's go on that one!" He pulled my hand with him running towards another roller coaster. I faked a cry behind him stumbling on my feet trying to hold the pace.

I wanted a cute date, maybe go to the beach and watch the sunset disappear behind the horizon, but when we were making our way there Yunho saw the amusement park in the distance and turned to me with puppy eyes, begging on his knees for us to go there as people were dirty looking at us. Two idiots in the middle of a sidewalk. One on his knees, and another one tugging at his arm to stand up and stop this embarrassment. I had to comply and say yes, because believe it or not there's no amusement parks in Heaven. Say what? Crazy right?

But anyway, that's how I ended up here, with a tornado in my stomach and a giant golden retriever dragging me with him from one ride to another. I have to admit it, I was done and over and ready to run away from him and make my way back home, but whenever I saw his eyes sparkling with joy in the colorful lights of the park, my heart softened. It's his first time in an amusement park. It's his first time on Earth.

"Ok, last one for tonight!" I said resting my hands on my knees looking up at him, trying to catch my breath.
"Tsk" He rolled his eyes at me "Fine. But promise me we'll come back here again one more time before I'm leaving" He held his pinky finger in front of me

I straightened myself looking at him as the same familiar pain creeped its way in my heart. I wasn't the one who should promise him that, he was the one. The one to promise me that he'll stay. I shooed my thoughts away.

"I promise, hmm-" I placed my index finger on my lips pretending to contemplate "I promise only if we can go and have some ice cream right after this one last ride" I pointed my finger at him.
"Deal" And we closed our promise together going up on the roller coaster.

We finally made our way to the beach after having some food from the stands in the amusement park, eating our ice creams in silence and concentration. Me with my forever mint choco, and him with whatever that strawberry-vanilla-caramel-pistachio thing in his hand was.

"I haven't been on this beach ever since me and my ex broke up" I said as we made our way on the sand, close to the waves, but far enough for us to not get wet.
"Why's that?" He turned his face at me as I was deeply staring at the waves crashing into the land.

"I moved soon after that, and whenever I came back to Busan I just didn't want to come here" I sighed holding my knees tight to my chest resting my chin on them.
"If it makes any difference, he didn't deserved you anyway" He said casually shrugging his shoulders "You should've seen his face on his first date after you broke up with him, when the waiter spilled a whole glass of red wine on his shirt" He laughed

"I heard about that. The chick he was with apparently was so embarrassed after that, she left him there" I chuckled trying to imagine the look on his dumb face at that moment "Well, accidents happen to shitty people, what can I say"
"That wasn't an accident" He laughed harder leaning with his back on the sand while I looked at him confused.

"What do you mean?" I leaned next to him tilting my head in his direction
"I'll tell you a secret, but promise you won't tell" He placed his finger on his lips before pointing at himself "That was entirely my doing" He cracked up even more as I bursted out laughing myself.

"That was you?" I gasped wiping the nonexistent tears under my eyes
"Yep. All me" He said proudly.
"So, wait a second" I shook my head gesticulating with my hands "So you even watched over me when I was in a relationship?" I giggled at the thought

"A couple of times, yes" His answer was stern "But don't think too far, I have my own limits" He laughed awkwardly.
"Well, thanks a lot then. But why?"
"Because you're my human and he didn't deserve you, like I said" He sighed turning his face at me "No one in this world is good enough for you Jia" He whispered, deeply staring into my eyes.

No one in this world is good enough for me. His words were echoing in my head as I turned my face to look at the bright sky, the starts proudly sparkling all over it. Then who is good enough for me? Who actually deserves me? Him?

"Hypothetically" I cleared my voice "Let's say you don't want to be an angel anymore, is there a possibility for you to ever live as a human?" My voice was quiet, barely a whisper as I awaited for his answer.
"Yes" He whispered
"How?" I felt my heart beating faster and faster as he sighed.

"Without my necklace I'm loosing my abilities with each day that passes by while I'm here. If a stay long enough on Earth, I'll eventually become human" A shaky breath left his mouth.

"But?" I asked. There's always a but, a catch. Nothing is that simple, ever.
"But I'll never be able to go back home, or see my family ever again. Not even in my dreams, and my wings...they'll disappear forever"

I turned my head at him noticing a stray tear dripping from the corner of his eye, down to his ear until he wiped it fast. He can be human, but with a price. My heart aches for him even more now that I know this. I wanted to tell him to stay, to be my...fake boyfriend for ever, to not disappear from my life, but I couldn't. I could never be so selfish to kidnap someone from his family for my own sake.

So I stayed silent watching the sky, as our hands brushed against each other slowly until we interfered our fingers together.

A/N: *crying rivers* my babies ಥ﹏ಥ