ROAMING THE EARTH | JYH

19. My missing half

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Yunho's pov:

I had to leave.

I had to leave out of her life, now and not later, but man does it hurt. It's been one month since I turned back, and each day hurt more than the previous one. Seeing her crying herself to sleep every night for the past weeks broke me and shattered my heart into pieces. I ruined her.

"Hey" I heard my brothers voice as he approached the end of the cliff I was resting on "How are you?" He asked as he sat down next to me. I scoffed not answering him.

"You know, mom is really happy that you finally came out today" He said as he threw a rock in the distance "She said it's probably best if you get back to your regular schedule" He said nonchalantly.

"Go back?" I laughed "Of course she wants me to" I mimicked his previous actions, throwing rocks down. In the distance, the city was finally quieting as everyone got back to their homes, the sun resting lazily behind the horizon.

"Listen, Yunho" He turned to me, crossing his legs under his body "I know I'm younger, and to be honest I never experienced love before, I'm sure you know this. But, if you love her that much why don't you go back? I know I'm the one that told her you should come home, but I've never imagined you'd come back this way" He thinks this is a children's game.

"Because I'm only causing her pain" I sighed "And because I love you. And I love mom, and dad, and Zeus and my life here" I looked down at my lap tugging the ends of my shirt.
"So that's it? You're prioritizing us over your own happiness?" He slapped my hands away in and attempt to stop me from fidgeting.

"Yeah? Of course I do. I don't want to leave all of you behind and eventually forget you" A shaky breath escaped my body.

Forget. That night at the beach I omitted this. I never told her that as time passes by, I'll forget about being an angel. I'll forget my family, my friends, my life, and so will she. We're both going to forget everything.

"Love is stupid" He said leaning on his back looking at the sky "And complicated"
"It is" I leaned down myself, closing my eyes.

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I had to see her. It's been three months since I left and I haven't looked for her at all in the past two months. It was torture for me to watch her cry in pain every single day. But tonight I had to see her. To see the birthday girl. I snuck my way out of my room, lurking in the dark corridors making sure no one sees me. I reached the room with the portal soon enough and threw myself in it, holding tight to my necklace as my wings spread out marvelously behind me.

I walked my way down the streets as soon as I landed, breathing in and out. I missed this polluted air way more than I would like to admit it. Earth is such a beautiful place, too bad humans don't treasure it as they should. They take everything for granted.

Soon enough I arrived in front of the restaurant, opening the door as I made my way in.

"Good evening sir" A young woman greeted me, flashing me her pearly white smile "Do you have a reservation?" She asked me looking down at the notepad on her desk.

"Good evening. Actually I don't. I was hoping you still have a free table, preferably close to the window" I smiled back at her as charmingly as I could.
"I'm afraid this restaurant needs a reservation in order to-"

"Miss" I will not take no for an answer "I came here from very far away tonight, just to see the girl I love. I haven't seen her in flesh and bones for the past three months and I feel like I'm loosing my mind. So, please, make an exception tonight and allow me to eat in this stu-gorgeous restaurant of yours so I can see my girl" I stopped my pleading, breathing in and out fast "Please" I added one last time mustering the widest smile I had on me at the moment.

"Right this way sir" She closed her wide open mouth, leading the way. I must have scared her, perfect. I took a seat at the table ordering the first thing that flashed my mind at the moment, focusing my attention back at the table next to me.

They were all there. Her parents, her grandmother, her friends, Seonghwa, and her. In her gorgeous emerald green dress complementing perfectly with her red curls. She seemed happy. She was laughing along with that Wooyoung guy she has a crush on. Of course she went back to her life before me. It's better this way anyway, I'm just happy I get to see her, even from the distance. Good thing she can't see me now that I look different, I would hate for her to see me and ruin her night. And so I stayed there in silence, enjoying my food, glancing at her from time to time trying to seem less obvious, that until her mother spoke.

"It's such a shame that Yunho couldn't join us tonight" I heard her saying as my eyes opened wide, Jia tensing in her seat.
"Yeah, he's-he's really busy back in the States mom, but I'm sure he would've loved being here tonight" She said slowly, a weak smile displayed on her lips.

She hasn't told them I'm gone?

"Such a nice boy, I sure do miss him" Her grandmother said as I watched Jia looking down at her lap, Wooyoung next to her caressing her shoulder.
"Are you ok? Do you feel sick? He asked her quietly as I leaned closer trying to hear better.

"I'm okay" She raised her head up to face him as I noticed her eyes glistening "Oh look, the cake" She pointed at the waiter approaching their table as everyone started singing the birthday song. He placed the cake on the table as the song came to an end and I watched her closing her eyes, puffing her cheeks with air blowing at the candles, as a stray tear fell on her cheek. And one on my own. Happy birthday Jia.

I stood up fast wiping my face, walking away to the bathroom. As I entered inside I tightened my grip on the ends of the sink, trying to steady myself from falling on the floor. I ruined her, and myself. I would do anything to hug her right now, to be the one wiping the tear on her cheek. If I was even there with her in the first place, that tear would've never spilled from her eye.

I exited the bathroom looking down at the floor with teary eyes as my body collided with another one. I took a hold of that person trying to steady ourselves, and as I looked down my heart stopped beating. She looked up at me with the same teary eyes I remember, teary eyes I caused. I released her from my hold, taking a step back.

"I'm-I'm sorry. I should've been more careful" I said quietly.
"It's ok, it's my fault, I wasn't paying attention" She sniffed her tears back, showing me a weak smile as our eyes locked together "Have we seen each other before?" She asked slowly.

"I don't think so, I'm new in this city" I scratched the back of my neck awkwardly "Uhm, I saw it's your birthday today. Happy birthday" I smiled back at her
"Yes, it is. Thank you" She bowed slightly
"What did you wish for?" I asked suddenly, cussing myself mentally for doing so as I watched her eyes sadden even more than they already were.

"I wished for happiness" She sighed "Not for me, for the boy I love" She mustered a weak smile at me, walking away. My heart was barely beating in my chest.

Could that be me? The boy she loves?

I left the restaurant with a set destination in mind. Her apartment. I made myself appear inside of it as I noticed the boxes scattered all over the floor. Is she moving away with Seonghwa? As much as I hate him, I'm happy he stayed by her side all this time, I'm happy he took care of her. I opened her bedroom door placing the letter and the flowers on the bed, disappearing again.

Hyacinths.