ROAMING THE EARTH | JYH

17. Thunder

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"Jia!" I heard him shout from the other side of the forest "Did you find anything?" His voice was barely audible.
"No!" I yelled back at him walking forward.

I wasn't even looking for it, maybe I already passed it by now. I know it's selfish what I'm doing, but I just don't want him to leave. Not yet when I'm so confused. Ever since I was a kid I always knew what I wanted, just like he said, I was a brave girl ready to conquer the world, and I'm ready to find a solution now too. He can't leave. He can't because I need him here with me, I need to figure out this stirring feeling I have in my soul. I need to know if this is what everyone calls falling in love I'm feeling, or it's just the idea of it I'm holding so desperately onto. I refuse to believe I can't find someone to deserve me in this big world, as this is all I ever craved.

I was walking deeper into the forest, tightening my grip on his jacket, his subtle perfume intoxicating me and my senses.

"What are you doing to me Yunho?" I asked the sky looking up, and as if it heard me, a loud thunder shook me to the core, making me jump on my feet loosing my balance. Next thing I know I was rolling down, deeper and deeper into the woods, my body colliding with the branches. I hit my head on a tree trunk and I stopped. I wanted to scream for him, but my body was numb. The rain pouring from above felt cold against my skin, blurring my vision until it turned into darkness. I was cold.

Yunho's pov:

"Jia!" I called her again, but I received no answer in return "Jia do you hear me?" She didn't answer me.

I heard the loud thunder hitting the sky, my heart throbbing from the vibration. Father must be angry again. The drops of rain met my face as I looked up at the sky. "Jia" I said to myself running through the cold rain. I need to find her, I need to know if she's safe.

"Jia! Jia!" I yelled from the top of my lungs "Jia where are you?" I reached the car fast, opening the doors only to be met by emptiness, she wasn't inside. I shut the door with a loud thud almost breaking it as I pulled at my hair, running in the other side of the forest she went in. I ran, and ran, cursing under my breath, shouting for her with all my strength but it was dead silent. No sound other than the furious rain and the tree branches crushing under my feet. A lighting stroke the sky.

"Fuck!" I yelled out loud punching a tree over and over again "Father! Father if you hear me, stop the rain. Please!" I fell on my knees shouting at the sky. I know he can hear me, I just feel it "Father please!" I haven't even realized I was crying until a painful scream escaped my body "If she dies because of me I'll never forgive myself. I'll never forgive myself for killing the only human I ever loved!" More sobs left my mouth as my voice cracked, the aching pain in my throat worsening with every sound I made.

But I don't care. I don't care about me. I'm ready to loose my voice, my hearing, my sight, even my life is that means she's alive and well. I love her too much to lose her and this is all my fault. I should've never looked for her over the years. I should've never came here for her when she cried for me.

Angels can't lie? Guess again.

I leaned with my back against the tree, holding my knees tight to my chest, burying my head on them as tears flooded my face furiously and more than ever. I've never found myself crying like this before, in fact I never cried for anyone. Only for her, the girl with flaming red hair I involuntary fell in love with. Please be alive Ji.

I should've went on with my searching, but I was stuck in place. Hopeless, as the rain fogged my thoughts in the darkness of the night. I'm useless, and I'll never be more than just that, but I have to find her.