Snowflakes in Spring

first love

Your heart is written
Across an old page
One I've kept
In my dress pockets
Of every age
I have faked

When everyone left
You chose to stay

Then you went away

Wondering
Always wondering
If you'll find me again
In the winter rain
But it's summer where I stand
And now my heart breaks
With the idea of you coming back
To me

It will always be you
That I run home to

Even if miles
Sperate me
From you

The daphodils have grown stagnant
And the violets
Never punctual
They've forgotten their flow
Or maybe my heart has forgotten time

When every dance is done
Why am I the only one wondering
If you'll play the music again
Just to sway
And be unrequited
With me?

I'll be alone moving to a tune
When the morning doves call
From their lofty trees somewhere
Where they watch all the mourning

Alone
What an ache that brings to my soul

If only you would've never said
You loved me

The lie is the worst part
Of this all

I'll still always be wondering
Even now
If you would ever choose me
The Girl
That used to be
A fresh spring shower

Wondering always
If the universe
Didn't collide all of me, and you
In another life