Don't hurt me.

Chapter 3

"Hello, um I got more questions than I expected, sorry if I didn't get to yours try again and maybe I will. But um....could you guys maybe stop being anon it's a little odd for me I guess because you know my name and a lot about me but I don't even know your names." Anons freak me out. I feel like some of them could be people I know and that's the last thing I need.

I guess I should get to school.

I grab a pair of skinny jeans they have a rip in the knee and I pair them with my black vans and my black vans shirt and throw on my red jacket. Wouldn't want anything to show.

I look in the mirror. Shit. Shit. Shit. A nasty bruise has formed over my eye. No way to hide this. Maybe I'll skip school today. Give it a day to heal itself. Fuck it. I'll go.

I get my board and run downstairs only to be stopped by my stepdad. "Des, pussy, nice bruise" he winks. The punches me in the stomach. I push past him and go out the door and begin skating to school.

I could take him.

No, you can't. You're a weak little bitch.

I-I kno-w.

I get to school feeling shitty as ever. I try to stay away from attention but the girls were waiting at me locker.

Great..

"Awwww Dessie baby are you okay?" Says some blonde girl. Candy or something.

"Dessie do I need to kiss it better?" Says some girl as she feels me up.

Oh god. I am not in the mood.

"I-I-I" I can't seem to find my words. " I'm fine. Just a little fight. Please don't touch me." I finally say.

"But Dessie I wanna show you a good time." Someone says flirtatiously.

"I'm okay. Maybe another time. I'm going to be late." I say as she pouts at me.

"Come on baby" she says as she puts her hands places she shouldn't. God dammit! I don't want this right now! I feel my temper rising. I should just get away before I hurt someone.

"NO! I don't want you. Leave me one!" I tell and run out the school. That was too much. No school today.

I skate to the park and sit in the tunnel. This is where I go when things are too much for me to handle.

I pull out a cigarette and light it up.

I pull out my bag I leave here and pull out the vodka. Almost out? Finns been here. Oh well. I down the rest of it and sit the bottle to the side.

I rest my head between my knees and just let it out.

I cry.

This normally happens when I come here. I just need to clear my head is all.

After about 2 hours I pull myself together straighten up my clothes. I check my phone. Stupid messages from stupid girls. Ah! Just the one I'm looking for.

Finn: aye Des, party tonight. Better see you there xx.

Me: I'll be there. Sorry I skipped out on school. It just got to be too much oi xx.

I grab my board and leave. I decide to go to the grave. I just need to talk to my dad is all.

When I arrive the grave is unkempt and the flowers are dead and wilted. My mum doesn't come here anymore. Only me and Finn do.

"Hi, dad. I've missed you more and more recently. Steve still beats the living shit out of me and mum doesn't do a damn thing about it. It hurts. If you were still here nothing would be so bad. I wouldn't hurt. I just miss you." I say beginning to cry again. "I hope you're doing well wherever you went." I clean off his gravestone and throw the flowers away then I leave.

I head home to get ready for the party.

I pull out my laptop and log onto my blog.

"Hey guys. I skipped out of school today. It was too much. These girls get annoying. I just wish one girl wasn't all over me..."

I guess I'll answer more question.

"Hi Des, I've seen you around school and well I thought you were just like all the other guys at school. See, you don't know me but I've seen you a lot and well no one would expect this from you. I find your story intriguing and I'd like to get to know you xx -Brinley"

Holy shit. How did someone find this. Maybe I should delete it? I mean she doesn't seem out to hurt me. I do need a friend maybe she's different.

"Hi Brinley, I would like that. I need a friend. Thank you. This means a lot. But your name doesn't sound familiar, next time you see me at school you should say hi to me ok?"

Maybe I should take a chance. I hope she talks to me. But as of right now I have a party to attend.

I throw on my 'high life' crew neck and throw on my vans and go to Finns room. He's not even up.

"Oi! Finny get up" I say. Finny is the nickname I had given him when we were younger.

"Dessie I don't wannaaaaaa" he whines. I pull the cover off and jump on him.

"Get up fiiiiiinnnnyyyyyy" I say dragging out his name as I pull him out of bed.

"Fine. Fine. Fine. I'm up!" He laughs.

He gets up and gets changed as I put in cologne and grab a blue neff beanie. He puts a pack of cigs in his pocket and we leave.

When we get to the party it's already in full bloom. I already have girls touching me and I've drank about 3 shots. I'm looking to get messed up. I just want that numbness. I spot a girl across the way. She's giving me a flirtatious look. Oh well I need to release sexual tension anyway.

I summon her over to me and take her to a room and we fuck. After that I find Finn who's trashed as hell and tell him we are leaving. It's about 4 in the morning and we have school today so I get him home and clean him up. School isn't an option for him. He's still drunk.

I hop in the shower and try to sober up. I put on some jeans and a sweatshirts and run down stairs and drink like four cups of coffee. I'm feeling pretty sober now so I decide I'll head to school.

When I get there my head is pounding. This is shitty. Then it happens. I see this strange looking girl I've never noticed before could it be Brinley?

She starts to approach me and........

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Hehe c; cliffhanger

-Hallie