Don't hurt me.

Chapter 6

I jolt up out of bed sweating and crying. I just had a nightmare. It's normal I guess. I get up and walk to Finn's room. I just need him right now. I can't sleep.

"Finn, you up?" I whisper.

"Yeah Des? Nightmare? Come here." He says pulling me into a hug and I just cry.

I wake up the next morning and get out of bed. I wake Finn up despite his protests and we get ready for school. Since we are up early we decide to eat breakfast avoiding our family. We then walk to school. I pull out my phone and open up my app to my blog. And type "Hey guys, sorry I missed a few days I've just had a lot going on xx" I post it then slide my phone back into my pocket. Wondering when Brinley will decide to show herself and speak to me. I don't why I feel so attached to her and this scares me. I'm scared of commitment if you couldn't tell. I just wish Carter was here to punch me in the arm ruffle my hair and say everything will be alright. I truly miss her more than anything. She's basically my lifeline but she moved back to Australia. Fuck I miss her. I can't think about this. It's too much.

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"Destin! You won't beat me!" Carter yells after me as I smile back at her running as hard as possible. I slow a bit and let her believe she's got me and right as we approach the water I speed as quick as possible.

"Haha I got you!!" I exclaim happily. I look at her she's bent over in the sand breathing heavy. I go over to her and lift her chin to look at me.

She smiles and as usual my breathing hitches. She does these things to me and makes me have feelings I don't understand. I help her up and pull her close studying her features. Her golden blonde waves fall to her waist, her eyes are blue with little flecks of green in them, and she has freckles a crossed her tanned face. I wonder if she knows just how beautiful she is. I lean in and brush my lips against hers and then press them to hers feeling an eruption of sparks flow through my body. Giving her her first kiss and also mine.

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I smile at the memory. That was back when I was innocent. Before things got bad and before I lost my dad. I just wish I could live in that moment forever.

It was when I was 13 the summer before 8th year and our families were visiting Carter and her families beach house. Our families were so close but after my dad died my mum lost contact and Carter moved back to Aussie. We text often but I miss seeing her and hugging her and most of all kissing her. She gives me these feelings I just can't explain....