Don't hurt me.

Chapter 7

We arrive at school the memories still swirling in my mind. I head to my locker. Great girls are waiting. Lovely. They pounce on me touching me and talking seductively. They turn me off. I think begs are just plain nasty. But then again aren't I nasty? I shake these thoughts out of my head and head to class.

The day goes by normal and Finn drives us home. I really look up to Finn, he's so strong. See, three years ago Finn lost his first love, Jamie, Jamie was the first boy he'd ever been with and they did it out if friendship and they just loved each other.

Jamie killed himself. Dealing with his sexuality was too much for him and two months later we lost our dad.

I'll admit Finn's had some hard times he'll we both have but as long as we have each other we'll be fine. He's the only one who can still look at me the same. Mum doesn't even acknowledge me anymore. It hurts.

We get home and I rush upstairs avoiding a beating and pull out my laptop. I log onto my blog. I have a message from Brinley. Yes!

"We should meet at Hyde park at 5" it reads. Shit it's 4:30 and that's far away.

"Uh alright I'll be there!" I reply and grab my board and run downstairs. I reach the outside looking over at Carters house. That's odd there's a moving van? Eh I brush it off and begin my long skate to the park.

I arrive at the park. It's 5 now so she should be here. I think about how close me and her have grown over the few weeks that I've had my blog as I light a cig. I might actually like her. The only question is can I commit to her? Or will I just hurt her?

By now I've been waiting 30 minutes. What the fuck? She stood me up. Then I see it. It's Brinley and she's making out with some guy. That bitch! I don't know why this hurts so bad but it does. I really did grow close to her she knows things no one else does. How can she humiliate me like this?

I see her look at me and smirk knowing what she did hurt me. Was everything some kind of sick joke? I just get up and leave. I'm not dealing with this.

I skate to my special place in the tunnel and I pull out my bag. I get the whiskey and gulp it down enjoying the burning sensation as it goes down. I feel tears sting my eyes.

Why does everyone hurt me? What did I do to deserve this? I don't understand. I pull out the weed roll up a blunt and light it and continue drinking the whiskey until its gone and my throat burns.

I just lay there letting tears stream down my face thinking of how everything was perfect three years ago.

I finally drag myself off the ground and walk home. I check my phone it's about 12 at night. Looks like I'm sneaking in. I walk around the back and climb up the vine things to get to my room.

Once I'm in I go to my window facing Carters old room and notice her bedroom light it's on. That's odd I think before stripping into my underwear and crawling into bed.

I feel my eyes get heavy and I fall into a deep sleep dreaming about Carter and all of our memories together. I love her, I think before blacking out.