Don't hurt me.

Chapter 2

"Today absolutely sucked, some girl from school that I'd had sex with at a party tells me that her boyfriend wants to beat my ass because, although she was all over me and I was as shitfaced as her, she told him I took advantage if her. I mean it's no big deal I can handle myself in a fight but she's making it out like I raped her. That's not cool I don't force girls to do anything they don't want to. I mean sure maybe I use them but I'd never rape someone. I'm not some sick fuck. Anyway, my blog had grown quite popular and you guys are bombarding me with support and pity but I don't want pity I just want to stop holding it inside. You guys can ask me anything if you need advice then feel free to ask? Anything you want to know you can ask... -Des"

I can't believe how much my blog has grown, I just hope no one from school sees it. That's the last thing I need.

Suddenly I get a little notification that someone actually asked me a question.

It reads

"Hi Des, I was wondering if you could tell us about how you lost your virginity?" -anon.

Well shit. Talk about personal. But I did say I'd answer anything.

"Well I lost it at about 13, I know I was young I make bad choices don't judge, I was at my first party with my mates and well they all had had sex so they persuaded me into it. So I went into this room with this girl she had to be at least 3 years older than me and well she fucked me, she took whatever innocences I had left and after that I was hooked. -Des"

I hate talking about this stuff Finn really is the only one I can talk to about this stuff.

By now I have like 30 questions. I guess I'll answer a few.

"What do you look like? ;) sexy I bet!" Anon

Jesus christ! No shame.

"Well I have dark brown hair and blue eyes, I have some freckles and my ears are stretched to a 00 and I'm 6'1. That just about sums me up"

I guess I have a different look than most. Next one

"What kind of music do you like?"

Oh god this is a discussion no one wants to have with me because it will never end.

"Well music is literally everything to me, I guess I'm into post-hardcore and I've got a soft spot for NeverShoutNever."

Good thing I left that short. No one ever wants to sit through and listen to my endless discussions of music.

Next question.

"Tell us more about yourself, who abuses you? And how?"

Wow. Am I ready to let this out.

"My stepdad gets a kick of beating the shit out of my daily"

Sums it up.

"How does no one know about your scars?"

Easy. They don't care.

"They do know, well at least my family does my mum ignores it. My siblings don't care, except Finn, maybe i'll talk more about him another time. But at school I wear long sleeves and when I do things with a girl I tell them I got in an accident when I was little leaving me permanently scarred on my arms and legs. They eat it right up and feel so bad for me."

I'm feel numbed. I've never realised just how careless everyone is. Just how little everyone cares about me.

Hello old friend.

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I hope you liked this. Sorry if my chapters are short. I'll work on that c:

-Hallie.