One Hundred Sleepless Nights

Chapter 15: What's So Good About Picking Up The Pieces

I cannot wait for this tour to be over. Even though we are from California, I hate heat. Heat can fuck its self. Today we were in Camden, New Jersey. I knew tonight there was going to be an epic party on our bus, considering we have the biggest. I was going to be at that party. I was going to have fun at that party. Want to know why? It's my birthday. I'm fucking fourteen years old. I crawled out of my bunk to get ready for the day. I wore blue denim short shorts with lace on the bottom. I wore a Pierce the Veil crop top that I made myself. I straightened my hair, and I pulled it back into a ponytail. I put on a lace headband. I wore waterproof mascara and eyeliner. I put on my red converse. By the time I was finished with everything, the boys were in the living room. Black Veil Brides, A+ Dropouts, This Wild Life, and PVRIS were all there too. "Happy birthday!" They all screamed. "Thanks." I smiled. "We brought you presents!" Ashley said. "Okay." I laughed and sat down in the middle of the floor. I was handed so many presents. Holy shit. Used to, it was only Jaime that celebrated my birthday with me. Yeah, I might get a gift card to somewhere from dad and the rest of the guys. I opened the one Black Veil Brides gave me. It was a Black Veil Brides shirt and a drawstring back that was made to look like a softball. "Thanks guys!" I smiled. "I picked them out." Ashley said. "I did!" CC countered. "Whatever, you guys lie." Andy put his hand in the air like "what the fuck are you doing?" kind of gesture. PVRIS got me a package of Under Armour headbands. "Wow thanks! I needed some headbands. I kinda lose them all." I laughed. "You're welcome!" All three of them shouted. This Wild Life got me a t-shirt from their band and a Polaroid photo of Kevin, Anthony, and me. The photo was also signed. "Thanks guys!" I said. They just
nodded. A+ Dropouts got me a softball shirt that said, "I'd rather be playing softball." "Thanks guys!" I said. "Welcome." Cheska said.

We all ate cake even though it's morning. After a while, everyone left so they could perform. That's when the guys gave me my presents. Jaime gave me a pair of sunglasses that I have been wanting, a framed photo of me and him, and twenty bucks. Tony gave me thirty dollars and said he would take me to eat tomorrow. Mike got me a necklace that said, "Darling you'll be okay." Dad got me crop tops from Rue 21 and Forever 21. I thanked them all. It was time to perform and party.

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"Before the next song, I want my daughter to come out here." Dad said to the crowd. I hobbled my way over. I wasn't using crutches anymore because I hated them. "It is her fourteenth birthday today. Can I get a happy birthday?" Dad yelled. "Happy Birthday!" The crowd yelled. I smiled and blushed. "Now we are going to sing Hold On Till May! This song goes out to my daughter and all of you." He said.

She sits up high, surrounded by the sun
One million branches and she loves every one
"Mom and dad, did you search for me?
I've been up here so long I'm going crazy!"

And as the sun went down we ended up on the ground
I heard the train shake the windows
You screamed over the sound
And as we own this night
I put your body to the test with mine
This love was out of control
3-2-1 where did it go?

Now don't be crazy
Yes now of course you can stay here.
Been in a touring band for going on ten years.
"Big deal," she said, "I guess you're official."
I only said it 'cause I know what it's like to feel burned out

It gets you down,
We've all been there sometimes
But tonight I'll make you feel beautiful once again

And as the sun went down we ended up on the ground
I heard the train shake the windows
You screamed over the sound (over the sound)
And as we own this night
I put your body to the test with mine
This love was out of control
3-2-1 where did it go?