One Hundred Sleepless Nights

Chapter 31: Say All That You Have To Say

Three Months Later

"I hate tour, and I hate you!" I yelled at Vic. "You don't have a choice! You have to stay no matter who comes on tour with us!" Vic yelled back. "Why can't I just stay at someone's houses huh?" I crossed my arms. "Because I don't want to burden anyone else with you! Do you think I want him on tour? I most certainly don't!" Vic screamed.

We were about to release extra dates for the tour off of Pierce the Veil's new album. We were in New York, New York. After tonight's show, the band is releasing the dates for the next part of the tour. Guess who is our opening act? All Time Low. Guess who is in All Time Low? Jack Barakat. Guess who I almost had sex with? Jack Barakat.

"It's not like we have a choice Allison. Besides, it doesn't start until after the new year." Jaime put his hand on my shoulder. "Fine! I will deal with that band." I rolled my eyes. "Good. Now here is some money. Get you something to eat while we do soundcheck." Vic handed me a twenty. "Later." I waved as I walked off the bus. I looked for the nearest restaurant. There was a deli around the corner from the venue. I decided to go there. Of course, fans were already here. I mean, it is like three o'clock. The show starts at seven. The herded around me. All of them were asking for me to sign things and take pictures. "Okay guys listen up! Form a line! I will sign something, and I will take pictures!" I yelled. They did as they were told. Luckily, there was only twenty of them or so. One by one, I took pictures and signed stuff from the fans. Finally they were all gone so I went inside the deli. I ordered a wrap and sat down to wait. "Allison." The worked guy called. I stood up and walked over to him to get my food. "Seems you're pretty famous." He chuckled. "My dad is in a band." I laughed. "Guess those were fans of his band?" The guy asked. "Yeah." I smiled. I turned around to leave. "Wait!" The guy said. "Yeah?" I replied. "Can I get your number?" He asked. "I would give you my number, but I'm only fourteen. Later." I walked out of the deli quickly with my wrap in hand.

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I looked at the line to get in. It was so long. The doors didn't open for another hour. I decided to play some songs. I borrowed dad's acoustic guitar. I positioned myself in the middle of the line. I started to play some Pierce the Veil songs. I even learned some Sleeping with Sirens songs to play. "Any requests? I do Pierce the Veil songs and acoustic Sleeping with Sirens songs." I said after finishing Hold On Till May. "Roger Rabbit! Roger Rabbit!" The line chanted. "Roger Rabbit it is!" I giggled.

Is there a right way for how this goes?
You've got your friends
And you've got your foes
They want a piece of something hot
Forget your name like they forgot

Oh, ain't that something?

Some wanna see you crash and burn
And criticize your every word
I'm trying to keep from going insane
Ain't that the way of this whole damn thing

Oh, trying to be something more

Nobody's gonna love you if
You can't display a way to capture this
Nobody's gonna hold your hand
And guide you through
No it's up for you to understand
Nobody's gonna feel your pain
When all is done
And it's time for you to walk away
So when you have today
You should say all that you have to say

Say all that you have to say

Is there a right way for being strong?
Feels like I'm doing things all wrong
Still I'm here just holding on
Confess my heart and forgive my wrongs.

Oh, just trying to show you something more

Nobody's gonna love you if
You can't display a way to capture this
Nobody's gonna hold your hand
And guide you through
It's up for you to understand
Nobody's gonna feel your pain
When all is done
And it's time for you to walk away
When you have today
You should say all that you have to say

Don't point the blame when you can't find nothing
Look to yourself and you might find something
It's time that we sorted out
All of the things we complain about

So listen close to the sound of your soul
Take back a life we led once before
If it ain't you then who?...
If it ain't you then who's gonna love you?

Nobody's gonna love you if
You can't display a way to capture this
Nobody's gonna hold your hand
And guide you through
It's up for you to understand
Nobody's gonna feel your pain
When all is done
And it's time for you to walk away
When you have today
You should say all that you have to say

So when you have today
Say all that you have to say

I finished strumming the guitar. "We have time for one more song!" I yelled. Everyone chanted "James Dean and Audrey Hepburn!" I started to play that song. As I sang the crowd sang along. Once I finished, it was time for everyone to go in. I went backstage into the dressing room. Dad was in there with Danielle. She was crying. "Dad? Danielle?" They both looked at me. "Come here Alli." Dad gestured me to come with his free hand. His other hand was wrapped around Danielle. "What's wrong?" I asked. "Danielle had a miscarriage." Dad whispered. My eyes started to water. I won't have a baby sister or brother. I was actually starting to get excited. I leaned onto dad's shoulder while we all cried. I can't believe this happened. I just can't believe it at all.

A/N: really short chapter oops

So I'm thinking about ending this book soon and writing another one

I think I'm going to stick to writing fanfics like this... What do you think?