Denying Love - (Will Singe/The Collective Fan Fic)

Chapter 23

Dedication to @Arrow98 again because I just realised as i was editing All You Need Is Love that she's been encouraging me and suppporting me for a very long time and still continues to do so. So thankyou xx

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Chapter 23

Will's POV

I sat back in the apartment rubbing my hair with a towel that Trent passed me with a sorrowful glance. I felt bad with all the pain I managed to un intentionally put him through.

*Flashback*

The water engulfed my body and sent chills right through my spine. I dove straigt back to the top and gasped for air. I splashed around trying to get a steady rhythm to swim to shore but it was hard when you were this cold.

I managed to use all my stregnth and power to pull myself through the icy cold water until I was able to just reach the shore. Now my body had physically gone numb.

"Will" I heard Trents voice shout and then suddenly I was being hauled out of the water by two arms.

The draged me up onto the grass and I forced my eyes open to see Trent standing over me.

"Are you insane?!" he yelled at me. "Why would you do that?"

"I think you know exactly why I did that" I muttered rolling myself over and then onto all fours. I remembered what had just happened with Rose and became annoyed that he asked me such a question.

"Did you think of anyone else before going to kill yourself?" Trent shouted at me catching me by surprise.

I rose to my feet before facing him. "I wasn't trying to kill myself" I told him giving him a disgusted look.

"Then why did you jump into the lake huh?" he asked frowning at me. 

"And why was I swimming towards the edge to get out huh?" I asked him.

He looked at me with a sudden realisation in his eyes. "Then why...?" he started to question looking confused. 

"I slipped ok" I exclaimed throwing my hands in the air. "It is raining and all" 

As I said that I came to the realisation myself that Trent was now also drenched from the rain.

"How did you find me?" I asked.

"I'm your best friend" he sighed. "I always know where to find you. Now come on let's got home and get dry"

"I need to be alone" I protested but Trent wouldn't take it.

"No you don't" he stated. "You think you do but you don't" he shook his head. "Besides. Getting a cold won't help anyone"

He was right of course so I sighed and gave him a small nod before following his to the car. We didn't bother running to get out of the rain. We were both soaked already so what was the point.

*End Flashback*

That left us here both sitting now in dry clothes in our room in complete silence.

"I saw what happened mate" Trent said breaking the silence.

'Did you enjoy the show?" I laughed sarcastically. "I'm sure heaps of other viewers did"

He just gave me a soft sad glance before looking back down at his hands.

"Mate I'm really sorry" he said shaking his head. 

"What for?" I said. "You didn't do anything"

"No but it's still tough" he said shaking his head.

"Your telling me" I said frowning. "You don't know what it's like to have your heart shredded and then stomped on"

"I kind of do" he shrugged. "When Nikki told me she cheated on me I didn't know she was lying so that felt as real as hell"

"I'm sorry man" I apoligised feeling so stupid. Who knew heartbreak could make you so insensitive. 

"It's ok" he said. "I know the pain your going through Will but it will heal"

"That's the part you don't know" I said looking up at him. "You got your girl back and she didn't actually do it"

"I may not have the experience this drastic but people always manage to heal and move on" he said smartly. "How exactly do you feel?"

"I feel like someone could stab me and that would be some kind of relief from this pain" I said shaking my head. "I feel not only as if somone has torn out my heart but rather replaced it with something worse as well"

He looked at me with eyes full of sorrow. As much as Trent could never feel my pain he still understood it. He was good in that way.

"I feel as if love is punishing me for pushing ti too far" I shrugged. 

"Love can't exactly punish" Trent pointed out but it didn't help.

"I feel like I shouldn't love because all it's done is bring me pain. The thing is that I thought love had finally brought me something that would complete my life. But now so far all it's done is destroy huge parts of me"

I shook my head biting my lip.

"Worst part is, I fell in love with someone who wasn't even mine" 

"Official or not love hurts when it's torn at" Trent said wisely. "I know it may not feel like it. But you can work this out. It'll just take time"

"I don't know if I want to" I said biting my lip and closing my eyes.

Trent seemed to sense the mood and stood up to leave. The door shut silently and I picked up my book of songs that sat beside my bed. I wanted to open it but I put it back down.

I then tried to create a few lyrics that maybe I could use but it was hopeless. Everything I did reminded me of her. 

Somehow I had manged to link my whole life to little parts of her. Her smile, her hair, her laugh, everything.

I flopped back onto my bed and then roughly pulled the covers over my body flicking off mt lamp.

At that moment I had no intention of moving for days. I wasn't even sure if i would have the stregnth to do so no matter how hard i tried.

Why did life have to be so hard?

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