Denying Love - (Will Singe/The Collective Fan Fic)

Chapter 11

Chapter 11

Wills POV

Seeing Rose break down and not being able to do anything about it was one of the hardest things i'd ever been through. The only thing i could think to do was to hold her in my arms and assure her that everything would be ok.

Never in my life would i have guessed that she'd been through so much. When I met her i knew she was a damaged soul but i guessed it was through a break up or loss of her mother from cancer or somthing because of the poem she read the first time i saw her, but i never guessed that it would be because of something so big and haunting.

I'd been through things and i knew that life could be hard but compared to her problems, mine were nothing.I had no scars, i had no burdens but she did and she refused to acknowledge that it wasn't her fault.

I could feel her tears running through my shirt as i sat there rocking her. My chin resting on her head. We were alone now. I think everyone realised that this was a more private moment and moved everything inside. Thats why i loved them. They always knew how to read a situation.

Slowly as i soothed her, Rose's sobbing stopped and her breathing relaxed. I continued to stroke my fingers through her hair as she softened at my touch.

Eventually she slowly pulled back wiping her eyes and I regretfully had to let her go. She sat up facing me and I used a finger to wipe a little bit of mascara that had leaked under her eye. Neither of us spoke for a second we just sat there, her giving me sad eyes and me returning an apoligetic look.

"I'm sorry" she sqeaked sniffling and breaking eye contact, "You really shouldn't have to deal with this"

"Hey" I said softly using two fingers to lift up her chin and connect her eyes back with mine, "You have nothing to be sorry about" I told her lightly shaking my head.

"Bet you hate me now huh?" she laughed sarcastically, "Girl who killed her parents isn't that appealing is she"

"What?" I said creasing my eye brows and shaking my head in protest, "You didn't kill your parents Rose"

She let out a humourless laugh and I instantly shot my hand out to connect our eyes again. "You did not kill your parents Rose" I said looking her straight in the eyes, "Accidents happen and this is one that you should never punish yourself for"

"I was in the car Will, I let a drunk 17 year old try and drive us home" she protested putting her hand on her temple as if she was struggling to admit it.

"You were 14 Rose" I reasoned grabbing her hands in mine, "You didn't get into that car knowing the outcome, you didn't ask for that to happen. Its a terrible trajedy, a massive one that noone could have predicted"

"It was illegal Will! I was 14 and drinking and the driver was 17 on his L plates. I was asking for something to happen" she wailed and i'd had enough.

"Enough Rose, enough!" I burst, jumping up and catching her by surprise, "No one, no matter what they've done deserves to go through what you went through! You can't sit here blaming yourself for the past and the horrible actions that life sometimes gives us. You can't live your life thinking what could have been because i'm sure your parents would hate you doing that"

I was breathless and she still had shock plastered on her face but i could see in her eyes that she was taking in what i was saying. I stepped towards her and cupped her hands in mine and made sure she was looking into my eyes.

"I havent seen your scars Rose, I haven't" I said softly making a tear come to her eye, "But they're part of you now and you shoudn't be afraid to show them. They shouldn't stop you dancing and they shouldn't stop you from trusting people around you"

"I do trust people" she whispered looking down and our hands and closing her eyes.

"Then what is it Rose?" I ask, "Is this why you won't let me in?"

I looked deeply at her as she took a deep breath and looked back up at me. But what she said came totally unexpected to me, "If i let myself love then i've got something to lose" she sobbed then pressed her lips together and looked up to stop herself from crying.

"Oh Rose" I sighed sadly before wrapping her in my arms. She hugged me back for a little while before we broke apart and i lifted her to her feet.

"I know it's hard" I said looking at her, "But please just promise me, that you'll try"

She looked ready to protest so I interrupted her, "I'm not saying you have to let go and forget all thats happened in your past, because the past creates who you are. I'm just asking that you try and accept the future"

"Ok" she whispered with a nod, a small smile forming on her lips.

I released one of her hands while keeping the other and wiped her eyes with my thumb so mask the tear marks.

I started to turn while keeping her hand in mine. She didn't protest or move back so i started leading her towards the house.

I kept telling myself not to and i kept trying to hide it but at that moment I knew. That as much as i tried not too, i couldn't stop myself from falling for her.

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Hope you liked the chapter, its shorter than usual... i think, i cant tell coz i typed this on the computer instead of my phone. But i've stopped focusing on the legnth since the content is more focused :) But on a positive note that means chapters don't take as long to write :P

I'm gonna stick with 15 votes coz I know you can do it :P you didn't reach it last time but I know if I lower it you'll catch it before I wake up tomorrow morning :P

x Shez x