Catastrophe and the Cure

Chapter 3

'Starr!' I yell. She looks at me with a smile of a 4 year old girl after just given a pony with pink glitter all over its fur. 'Are you happy to see me or what?' she says. I look at her in disbelief and ask 'What- How- Uh...What's going on?'. I close my eyes thinking it'll make all this go away..make HER go away.

'I missed you baby!, How was Spain love?'. Although I can hear her, I still cannot believe I'm hearing her say all this.

I tell her to get out of the car, she frowns but still follows orders. As we're standing there, I try to use my time to think of the right words to use. She's smiling at me, like a fat kid at a candy store.

'I missed you baby' she says. She hugs me and I can't help but hug her back. I loved her, but I shouldn't.

She has me in the air, I'm holding her tight as she cuts my breath short. As soon as she puts me down, I look into her eyes and she says 'I love you'. I try soo hard and the best I could do is give her a warm smile. She seems to have noticed my discomfort somehow. 'What's wrong?' she asks.

I try to think of a good lie, or something. But I'm already frustrated with the whole day that I simply say 'nothing'. She hands me something from her pocket. I take it, 'meet me at the dead end by your house at midnight' she says. I nod, and she gives me a kiss right on my lips. I stand there for what seems like forever, trying to convince myself that this did not happen. But it did.

I drive home, beating myself up with thoughts and negativity. 'Why didn't you say anything Lora?'

'Why are you such a lame ass?'

I made it home. My mum asked me how my day was, I simply said 'fine'. She could sense there was something I didn't want to talk about so she let it go. I gave my baby sister Jesse a kiss and squezed her tight. She giggled and said 'Lora! You fanny'. (that was her way of saying FUNNY, she was soo cute, she was only 3 years old and totally adorable!)

I went inside my room, laid my backpack on my bed while i did the same with my whole body. I laid there staring at my Razorblade Romance HIM poster. I couldn't stop beating myself up for what had happened at the parking lot. But all thoughts were cut short when my mum comes in, her face already pleading for me to say yes... 'Hey Loris, will you go pick up your sister from the bus stop? Since you have a car and all..' she says. I look at her and smile. 'Sure mum, I'll be right back then'.

My little sister Michelle finally gets out of the huge elementary school bus, walks across the street and yells my name. 'Lora! You came to pick me up' she yells with happiness.

'Yep, and we're gonna go get ice cream before we go home, yeah? I ask her. 'Oh yeah, yeah, let's go!' she says.

After grabbing some ice cream from the local shop 2 streets down our house, we make it home. Everyone got their ice cream, and I let everyone know I'll be doing my homework in my room, meaning: "don't bother me".."Please."