Miracle Marriage

Chapter 39

Soul Mate

"Sathya, today I feel that you have got more mature than me. One's age does not measure one's maturity. I remember you small and weak like a little innocent girl but today you have astounded me. I am delighted by those words, your answer, earlier." He spoke as we drove back home, I smiled and glanced through the window, lost in my thoughts. What I said to Doctor Jaya is the truth. My heart spoke.

"Doctor, love me like this to the end," I said, abruptly. He was stunned, but his very own soft smile bloomed; "My Sathya, I will always love you. You are the only one who makes my heart flutter like this. You are the only one who makes me vulnerable, only you can give me the love I need. My love, my future and my entire world, belong to you only. I belong to you, to the very end and beyond." He sang like an ode. I want to cry, not out of sadness but of bliss. I have found the one, soulmate they call, the one made for you.

"I want to be with you, doctor. I want to create a family. I want to see our children grow up. I want to hear you call my name every day. From the first sight in the morning to the last sight at night, it's you I desire to see. I love you," I said, he was silent, but I can see his eyes shining and his smile widening. He is elated.

That night was exquisite. I think I broke the first thing Durga warned me about. With the urge to feel him, be in his arms and share the warmth, I was engulfed by craving. I could feel his inner self wanting to go rampage, but like a skilled trainer, he is controlling well.

"Bala... touch me more," I whispered in his ear.

"Sathya, I wish to. I wish to eat you. I want to pound hard and go berserk. My thirst inside me wants to swallow every part of your body, from your head, and lips, to your neck, and your alluring bosoms and slid through your tender belly, nibble the nectar of your bloomed flower then to the very end of your delicate legs and toes. I wish to eat everything. However, I have to control," he spoke while his fingers ran through my chest. I know what he means, I know.

"Hug me, doctor,"

"Yes, I will not let go of my hands, ever," our naked bodies rubbed each other. Emotions inside me and thoughts inside my head, everything vanishes, and dissolves, leaving only him in me. This is all I need. Him.

Earlier that day...

"Jaya-chechi, you are here. I heard you were with Bala-chettan, how was the interview," asked Jaleel when he ran into Dr Jaya Gopi who was staring at Sathya leaving with Bala.

"I met his wife, Sathya," she replied

"Oh! She is a brilliant student. Bala-chettan loves her so much." Jaleel answered, blushing.

"I asked her a question, Jaleel. She totally defeated me with her powerful answer. No wonder that gloomy Bala is head over heels for her. She is a miracle," Jaleel was stunned by Jaya's words. It was the first time the arrogant Jaya he knows spoke such words.

"I once visited them in their house. The family or husband and wife relationships we watched grew are really changing, at least to them. I have only heard about soul mates, but I believe they were made for each other. They both respect and care for each other more than any other couple I saw. Sathya knows what Bala-chettan thinking, it's like telepathy. I was surprised. He can understand the meaning of her slight movements. Huh! seeing them, I wish my soulmate shows up fast," Jaleel stated. Jaya laughed, patting his head, like a child. It made him blush more.

"Sathya is my past. I remember the day I told my husband, I want to be a doctor and I want to study. His answer was a scornful laugh and a slap on my face. He forced me to accept motherhood. You know when the chain around you tightens, the pain takes the form of bloody wounds, but that's key. If one does not rise up and fight then, those keys will vanish, into dark scars. I took the keys when many were scared to even look or speak of it. I left him. I pursued my dream, slowly cutting the chains around my wings and body. I became a doctor and a mother. Today, I heard the most beautiful words from that girl. I am so happy. Unlike me, her key was not the wounds but him." Jaleel stood absorbed, his eyes travelled through her pretty eyes and untamed hair keep falling into her face, blocking his view. He wished to capture them and lock them behind her perfect ear. He wished to whisper in that ear, "Let me wipe those awful pasts of yours, give me a chance, senior," yet, his lips ignored his heart. How long? How long am I going to wait? I should say. Why am I afraid of her rejection? He recalled all those years he studied as her junior, those feeling he felt whenever his eyes met her and those sleepless nights he spend thinking only about her. When he finally grabbed all the courage to confess his love, he was blocked by those words.

"Why don't you think about another marriage, Jaya? Rahul is still a baby now," her friend asked.

"No, I am strong enough to raise my son. I don't need a man's strength to do that. It's not arrogance or fear. To be a doctor is the only thing on my mind now. Rahul will understand his mother. Love is something that I can't do again. Even if someone proposes to me, I feel forced. It's like I need to take responsibility for something I never wanted. I hate it. My life is now in my hands and I can do it alone. As that jerk's family said I am over selfish and bold for a woman," those words, sealed his heart. Jaleel kept his affection hidden inside his heart for years. As time went by, their paths changed and diverted, but not his emotions, they are chained forever, deep inside him. He came here with another purpose, to unchain those affections. He is ready to take the rejection, although he knows it for sure.

While Jaleel sunk into the deep pit in his heart, Jaya recalled Sathya's answer. "This is off the syllabus, Sathya, I can see you are expecting a baby soon. I have gone through this period in my life it's the happiest and hardest. What I want to ask is, what do you prefer the most being a mother or being a doctor, because both need a lot of care, attention and responsibilities?" I asked the young girl seated in front of me, pregnant, full of dreams and intensely fallen in love with my colleague, her husband. I can see her face shrinking, she is searching for a good answer. I see so it's hard. Of course, you cannot answer it immediately. Was I expecting too much from her?

"I will choose both." with a smile she said. I am intrigued. what is she going to tell?

"I don't see any reason to choose either one when motherhood is a part of me and to be a doctor is the path I chose to be my future. Why should I choose? I can be both. I can take care of my children as a mother and treat people as a doctor. Moreover, I am not the only one responsible for rearing a child, I am blessed to have someone who can understand, love and lean on by my side. To be a doctor is something I chose, just like to be a mother. I don't know how to explain these in a logical way, I am not good with words. But being both a mother and a doctor is not an impossible thing, you have proved it, don't you Ma'am? Learning from experience is better than books, you showed me it's possible so I will not choose between them. I will be a doctor and a mother. I am sure, I will not be alone," she smiled at me. I am impressed, me? as an example for my own question? I am speechless. I glanced at Bala, who was blushing completely enchanted by his wife's words.

"Well, the viva was already over. It was a personal question. Sathya, you are strong, just walk forward, I am sure you will be a great mother and an amazing doctor," I had no other words to speak. "Now, take your wife and get out, Dr Bala, she was the last one," I watched them walking out, happily, soaked in love. Love? so there is something called love. Just I was not lucky enough to catch it. Will there be ever... No, it has long gone. But I am glad I witnessed it. Sathya and Bala, thank you for showing me something unique. I pondered, elated.

"Jaya-chechi, I am going to say something crazy. I was keeping these words unuttered for years. I am a fool," Jaleel smiled as Jaya looked perplexed.

"Jaleel?"

"Chechi, if I asked you to marry me, will you do it? I know, I am asking too much, and I know you will feel burdened by my question, I know I am not perfect yet... yet, for at least clearing my heart, please answer me. 'Cause I am in love with you," he stated, bravely, glancing right into her eyes that glowed under the resting sun. She was quiet. With the slow howl of wind and the scent of flowers, the air has lightened.

Love? Jaleel? Can I really do it again? No, I can't. I must reject, she thought.

"You know when I hear you say you can't love anyone again, my heart broke. I was thinking like a child then. I ran away from the barriers I needed to overcome. I let you go. Love can change and it can definitely change others. What kept you with that man was not love but fear, you deserved to know what real love is. Even though I am no expert, I have more than six years of love to shower you with. I will await your answer and chechi, you can always reject me," his smile changed something within Jaya, she smiled, light as a feather. Right, what was love again? I rejected it without knowing it, what was it? Love, An obscure world.