Mónica's POV
The week after my fight with Pablo is miserable for me. I was supposed to go on a date with him but I manage to cancel it, convincing Manu that promoting the EP is a lot more important. We have a busy day.
Smiling on the red carpet and in front of all the journalists is a bit of a struggle, but thankfully they know I'm shy from my time on Operación Triunfo so they don't expect me to be that much different.
"Mónica! Mónica, here please!"
"Hi".
I recognize the reporter as one of those that covered the show so I go to him first.
"How excited are you to finally release your own music?"
"It's a dream. I've been writing songs since I was a kid and I'm still trying to process what's going on".
"I can imagine", he laughs. "Did any of the songs you worked on at the academy make it on the EP?"
"Just one, but with some changes. I've got a few songwriters helping me polish the songs so they are a lot better. And others might be on future EPs or albums. I don't know yet".
Another reporter pushes her way to the front to put her microphone right on my face.
"Mónica, there are a few love songs on the EP. Are they about your boyfriend?"
Of course, he has to be mentioned.
"No. I don't write about him".
"Why not? You have such a dreamy romance. Your fans, and his, expect you to be dedicating him all the love songs you can".
"Well, they can read my songs in whichever way they want, so...".
Manu is not liking my answers and so he intervenes.
"Sorry guys, we have to go talk to some tv channels. Sorry to cut this short".
He takes me away from them and I can hear him sigh.
"Mónica, I know you are angry at Pablo. I don't know why but you can't let that affect today, ok? You've worked too hard for this".
"They should stop asking about him, then".
"You knew they would ask about him. Just don't look at them like you want to murder someone when they do, please".
"I'll try, sorry".
"Just know I'm on your side. Whatever it is he did, I know you are right in being angry at him", he says, giving me a thumbs up while I sit down to talk to more journalists.
He must be the only one on my side. My mum is still telling me to talk to Pablo because he can explain everything. Right...I'm sure he can.
I know I'm being a bit harsh but seeing Romina, and knowing about how he used to see girls but hid them from the public, just reminds me of the type of life footballers live. That's not a life I want. I shouldn't have involved myself with a football player. And I definitely shouldn't have fallen in love with one. It's all my fault and that's the problem. I'm punishing him knowing that I'm the one who got it wrong.
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Trouble in paradise?
It couple Mónica López and Pablo Gavi have been blessing us with the best couple content these past months but...is it over for them?
At the presentation of her first EP, the Barcelona singer was asked about the footballer and answered all the questions with a rather cold tone. Very different from her useful cheerful way of talking about her boyfriend. When asked if any of the love songs from her EP were about the Barça midfielder, she answered with a harsh "I don't write about him". Maybe that will change in the future if she has to write any break-up songs?
When asked about this, both of their managers assured us that the couple is still together and doing well. But we've heard that one before. Only time will tell if the young couple is over or not.
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"We need you to do a post on Instagram clarifying that you and Pablo are still together. Do you want me to write it?"
"I'll do it, Manu. Sorry I'm causing so many problems".
"I mean, this will give more attention to the EP but...I don't like seeing you like this, Mónica. I hope you two fix this soon".
"Yeah, I'm sure we will".
When I hang up, I start writing the post. This is so stupid. I hate that I don't even get to be hurt and that I have to give explanations to random people about what goes on in my life. But...I chose to do this.
"Hey, guys. I've been told about all of these reports about Pablo and me and please, don't pay them any attention. We are together and as happy as always. You guys know how bad my anxiety got back at the academy and this is the same. That plus a terrible headache left me feeling super overwhelmed about the whole promo day and I was probably a bit rude to everyone. So sorry. And again, don't worry about Pablo and me. He's literally looking after me right now 😉
Love, M xx"
I add a selfie Pablo and I took one of the times I was at his place so people can concentrate on that more than on the words. It'll definitely be more effective. But seeing the photo hurts because that wasn't fake, was it? I know my big smile isn't. Because I loved spending time with him. Just with him. But it wasn't the same for him.
When I see him post two hearts on my post, I throw the phone away. I don't even know if it's him doing this or Saúl but I just can't stand it. I can't stand the lies. And the pain.
I decide to take a shower before my parents come back home. I just want to stay under the water for hours, trying to pretend the world and all my problems don't exist. But the water gets cold and that's my sign to get out.
When I pick the phone up, I see 3 messages from Pablo. He's tried to talk to me these past few days but I just left him on read.
Pablo: are you ok?
Pablo: please, Mónica. Just tell me you're ok. I know the post is a lie but not the anxiety. I need to know you are ok after today.
Pablo: the guilt is killing me and that's punishment enough. I need to know you're fine and Manu won't talk to me either.
His messages make me cry again. Because I believe him when he says he cares but...I don't want him to just care. I want him to love me like I love him.
Mónica: I'm fine. Please leave me alone.
He sees my message immediately but doesn't answer. And that hurts too, even if he's just doing what I asked him to do.
I'm such a mess.
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