STAR - JAYHOON

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Jay's pov

I was very popular among my people, I got used to be eyed by everyone and hearing complimens left and right, mom says I have good genetics , and it got even worse when I started dating both men and women. There were definitely some clingy ones , crazy and even ones who took everything too seriously or overboard. But it was always easy to get rid of them . This guy over here , hovering over me , eyes looking at me intensely reading through my thoughts and smiling adoringly, is my hardest case . I tried to get away from him for months, but he never got bored nor backed out , even worse than that he started getting braver , following me around and breaking in my house , I had no idea about how to get him off my way . I even tried escaping, shamelessly lying to Sunoo telling him I'm not that weak or easy to just run away of my problems , but I concidered it multiple times

And then it shined in my brain , he probably is sexually attracted to me , I've read about this multiple times and it all ends once the person get their night with you . I wasn't a slut to offer myself as a bribe for him to get away from me . But somehow we got into some .. interesting activities, and with all the shame and embarrassment i had , i was happy , because part of me believed that will be the last time I'd see him stick around me . I already planned a new life after I cut everything with him , we have no reason to see eachother anymore .

But when he showed up to my house , holding flowers and smiling as he always did , eyes sparkling with happiness, I knew he wasn't willing to let go of me , and if anything, our intercourse yesterday was the final drop to fill his delusional mind. His smile dropped so fast when i told him I don't want to meet him , and suddenly the memory of him looking at me, eyes dripping with honey, then leaning to my ear to whisper "I love you so much , i love you like crazy" while moving his hips so aggressively yet so gently hit me, I felt guilty and closed the door

There are things you'd expect from a man like sunghoon, who have a history of acting impulsively and possessively , but in that state of mind , realizing he probably have some real feelings for me , I didn't expect the most expected thing in the world , him walking in after i closed the door. I felt dumb when I heard the door unlock, he walked in yesterday, he definitely knew the code .

I felt so bad , and knew I had to be strict and firm this time , no jokes , no teasing and no mixed signals that he can take as me playing hard to get

-"I don't want to see you anymore"

I said it with an emotionless face , It was the truth but i never expected I'll be using this sentence in my life, I was always so caring and conciderate . But that feeling faded so fast , anger now was growing bigger inside of me , while i felt bad for being obliged to hurt his feelings , he didn't even listen to my words

I tried to cover it up as anger, but I believe how flustered I was by his sudden move and words were written boldly on my face . I was mad at him and disgusted by all the things he did . In any other situation I would've kicked him out , but this one isn't listening, even he got braver physically, and when he felt he was losing , he started threatening me

I over estimated myself and pushed him on the couch , forgetting one thing . Throughout all our encounters , this man was never flustered by any move i made , while I was surprised to be flipped on the couch and looking at him on top of me stirred memories from last night , when he started attacking my neck passionately ,i knew I needed to get out of that position before anything else happens 

-"And I hate how you keep acting all almighty and cocky around me" i yelled at him , pushing him away and escaping.

I tried to cover it up as anger, but I believe how flustered I was by his sudden move and words were written boldly on my face . I was mad at him and disgusted by all the things he did . In any other situation I would've kicked him out , but this one isn't listening.

-"Jay" his voice sounded so sweet "I have to act like this , if I don't I'll only get hurt by all of this rejection"

-"Stop persuing me then !" I said, his words defeated the logic "I obviously am not interested in you , you're wasting your time and making me feel very uncomfortable"

He sat on the couch , and got all quiet. Head resting on his palms , hiding all his face . I again felt bad , and guilty , so i just sat on the floor facing the couch , waiting for him to say anything.. it felt like i finally got my point through, and it was the end

After minutes of pure silence , only his crying voice echoing the empty apparentement ,he spoke

-"I tried to move on from you , but I couldn't, I only saw you once and you lived in my brain ever since , it is my bad for being delusional over a stranger I only saw once it's true " his voice got lower and lower "when i saw you once again , you were exactly how I imagined you . I came again to see you, and again and again and the more I got to know you I couldn't stop loving you " his voice got shaky again

-"Sunghoon " I tried to comfort him , but I didn't have any words

-"I became addicted to you Jay, you became my muse and my inspiration, my love and my world, The days i spend without you , the minutes I don't get to see your face or feel your breath around me kill me " he started yelling , and kneeled in front of me holding my shoulders and shaking me "I am obssesed with you , and I don't even want to let go of this obssesion, I don't care how much you hate me or how hard it is for you to stay around me , I want you around me , and I'll keep that happen , i would kill for us to be together. You should remember this , don't ever ask me to leave you alone , ever again. Because I won't"

I was shocked , creeped out by the man on his knees , saying all type of things, it was too much for me to take , so i stared silently at him , while he sat there , most likely adoring my face

-"How can I not obsess over you , how can I not cherish you and seek to be close to you , to own you , while you're this beautiful" his hands reached for my face , holding it so gently and warmly I almost forgot how scary he is , while his face started blushing , and his eyes lit up "While you're so beautiful and hot , and caring and endearing"

I was getting tense , my body telling me something wrong is going to happen, so I avoided him, focusing my eyes on anything but his face

-"Look at me !" His soft touch became rough "I need you to look at me and me only " he laughed when I still avoided him " how can I let go of a beautiful, fun and emotional man like you " his hand swifted fast from my face to my head , pulling my hair " a man who prioritizes me and my emotions over his own , look at you holding back all of your words and punches just because I have just delivered my bare truth to you " his voice started getting breathy while he got closer to my face , pulling my hair and smiling "I will always love you , Jay, you've just proved my decision correct, you're the one for me , and there can't be anyone other than me for you "

And just like that , while watching sunghoon leave my house after setting his flowers carefully in a vase on my table , I realized he was far beyond what I've expected him to be , and now , what I've concidered only an option, is a must.. I must run away from this guy