STAR - JAYHOON

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Sorry for taking forever 😭 i got depressed because it's ending soon and couldn't write anything

Hope you enjoyed it!

Jay woke up first, sunghoon was holding him in his embrace, arms wrapped on his shoulders,  head resting on his hair, and legs tangled together. It was quite a mission to get off the bed without waking him up, but Jay did it

He would usually smoke his cigarettes from his balcony in his room, but it was already midday, and he felt like he deserved some time off sung hoon, so he went out of his room, leaving it dark and cold, perfect for sunghoon to stay asleep for at least few more minutes before he  starts missing Jay's warmth next to him

He dragged his feet through the hallway, past the big mirror Sunoo insisted on having, oh he was a mess, every part of his body had a blue, red, or purple love mark, some bite marks here and there as well. He stood there for a second staring at his body, pulling his sleeveless shirt up to see the marks trailing all over his torso to where his sweatpants hang

He sighed letting his shirt fall down his body, he's lucky it's winter so he can cover all of it by dressing up. He pushed his hair up, just for it to slide down back to its original shape, and then started dragging his feet again to the window, oh he needs that cigarette so badly.

Jay pushed the window open, shivering at the cold air striking his face, he lit his cigarettes and leaned on the wooden frame, inhaling the smoky taste of it, eyes roaming on the streets, not looking at anything specifically, nor for anything either, he was just looking down, discovering the streets. It was a lively hour, and he would love to go down the streets and have a walk, but he can't, they will be filming for the whole evening.

Jay heard sunghoon shuffle in his bed, getting up quickly, stumbling over his slipper, probably deciding to eventually walk without them, hitting the door, and running out of the room. He heard the heavy steps of him get closer, faster, then felt his arms wrap so tightly around his waist, nose buried in his neck crook as he inhaled deeply, calming himself.

-"I thought you left me" sunghoon said from behind him

-"This is my house" Jay replied "Where would I go other than here"

-"I was scared when I didn't find you next to me" he sounded genuinely scared, making Jay feel slightly bad

-"I'm here " he brushed the younger's hair "It's not like I can go anywhere without u knowing" in an attempt to joke, he blurted, feeling a slight change in the other's breathing

-"I'm sorry it has to be this way" sunghoon apologized, kissing the back of Jay's neck softly

Jay didn't say anything, he just laughed shaking sunghoon off him, them being this was Sunghoon's choice, how's he even sorry while he has a grip over all that's happening?

Sunghoon backed off, inhaling deeply, slightly disappointed. His eyes lingered on Jay's body, liting up with lust at the sight of all the marks he had placed, he smirked running his finger on Jay's shoulder, down to his arm

-"I didn't know you can have marks on your arm," he said standing back, admiring his creation

Jay turned around slightly, cigarette between his lips and eyebrow raised, he scoffed and rubbed them

-"I know right? How can u think of sucking someone's arm" he laughed, a little too naturally, and sunghoon was mesmerized

Jay noticed his adoring eyes after not receiving a reply. He smiled awkwardly and turned around to continue smoking. He'd rather have his eyes piercing through his back, burning holes into him than see him flustered by his smile and morning hair. Jay was probably weak to a morning sunghoon, maybe that's why he doesn't act up strongly when sunghoon wants to stay the night. And maybe, Jay imagined him as his boyfriend once or twice

-"You can get your breakfast from the fridge, I think we have strawberry milk or something," Jay says randomly, trying to distract him from his body

-"Won't you eat with me ?" Jay can feel Sunghoon's imaginary tail drop in disappointment

-"I think I'll just stick to my cigarettes, I'm not a breakfast person anyway" he feels bad

-"Then I won't have it too" sunghoon stomps his foot on the floor and Jay smiles at the imagination of a cute sunghoon acting up. It's always a sight to look at

-"You fucking brat" he tried to hide his smile while turning around, killing his second cigarette before being able to finish it  "Be quick, we have filming to do" Jay stated while walking past the younger, knowing damn well he was now smiling widely as he followed

-"Jay, should we have lunch together?" sunghoon asks as he stands right next to Jay who was going through the fridge getting things for their breakfast , scared he'll get jay annoyed with him if he touches him

-"what?" jay pulled his head out of the fridge  , looking at him in suspicion

-"You know, like a lunch date then we get to work from there" sunghoon was playing with his fingers, holding himself from holding Jay so close that he becomes a part of him,  in Jay's eyes he just looked cute and nervous

-"Oh, I don't think that's possible , we're somehow a public figure now, you gotta make do with whatever is home " jay smiled at him and went back to grab more things

Sunghoon watched as Jay tried a little harder to" make do" with what's available. Gathering ingredients and throwing them in a pan, plating and working out whatever's there, not just the ingredients, but they didn't even have much time

-"You're acting like a husband " sunghoon said, face resting on his palms as he watched Jay place the last plate in front of him "nice and caring, making me a brunch"

-"I'm a great husband " Jay said, going along with whatever sunghoon was saying, sitting across of him and grabbing a toast and some butter

-"I guess you only needed a dick inside of you to act properly " sunghoon teased. And jay pointed the butter knife at him "Did you like it that much you decided I'm not bad after all?"

Jay inhaled deeply, calling for all the calmness in the world "just eat" he said after looking with a straight face at a very amused sunghoon

-"bet you liked it, you took it wholly, eagerly" sunghoon enjoyed jay's flustered face so much

-"You have 10 minutes to finish your food and leave my house " jay grabbed another toast "sunoo will be here soon"

-"So ?" sunghoon raised an eyebrow

-"He can not see you stayed here "

-"I think he should,  I'll be here more often"

Jay stared,  very bored,  and shrugged,  he knows he shouldn't talk to sunghoon but somehow he keeps doing it

-"I'll ask riki to kick you out" he bit on his toast,  and sunghoon nodded,  amused by Jay thinking a child can keep him away

-"I'll be glad to see him try" sunghoon chuckled biting on his own toast

It wasn't that bad of a morning by any mean, they sat there, having a peaceful breakfast made by whatever the kitchen provided them with,  having random conversations and laughing,  it was fun,  it was comfortable..  And it was natural

Jay couldn't help but be afraid of how natural it all felt, how rightful he deemed himself of sunghoon's loving eyes and gentle touch whenever he tried to hold his hand. It all scared him how habits got the best of him,  and even through the process of healing that took a whole year,  his walls could shatter so easily

But he could not do much, he promised sunghoon,  they have a deal,  and he dedicated himself to him in private

So even with the burning sensation inside of him,  and with the tears that kept forming in his eyes,  he smiled at sunghoon and kept pretending to be fine.  Not like his body could do anything else but lean in for every word or touch from the younger

Jay was falling again