𝕋𝕙𝕖 ℕ𝕖𝕨 𝕎𝕚𝕟𝕤𝕥𝕠𝕟 𝕀𝕟 𝕋𝕠𝕨𝕟 // 𝕋𝕙𝕖 𝕆𝕦𝕥𝕤𝕚𝕕𝕖𝕣𝕤 𝕗𝕒𝕟𝕗𝕚𝕔// 𝕊𝕠𝕕𝕒𝕡𝕠𝕡 𝕗𝕒𝕟𝕗𝕚𝕔

~ELEVEN~

"Are you going to tell me what's going on?" I asked Josh getting impatient.

He was driving with his left hand and held my hand with his right.

"Before I met you I had a little sister. She was so sweet, I couldn't ask for a better sister. He name was Rachel. She was four years younger than me." He stopped to sniffle. I looked over at him as a single tear slipped his cheek. I gripped his hand harder and rubbed my thumb over his knuckles.

"Umm one day Rachel passed Dally wrong and he jumped her behind a building." He said. I closed my eyes as my head fell hard back into the headrest. I felt my eyes getting watery.  Anger and hatred filled my body.

"She never made it out of the hospital" he finally finished. More tears spilled from his eyes but you couldn't hear it in his voice.

"I'm so sorry Joshua. I didn't know" I said.

" it's not your fault and I know you didn't know. Once I met you and I was hanging out with you, Dallas found out and threatened me that if I told you he would kill me." He said. His eyes  had cleared up and turned more into a hatred tone.

" Im actually going to kill him." I said. My eyes had cleared up a bit.

Josh had parked the car on a cliff over looking a big lake. The sun had started to set. We got out and sat on the hood of his car.

"So let's talk about something else." He said.
" I swear to God if you say something about my hair or dress I'm going to hurt you." I said laughing. He started to laugh too.
We laid back on his car so we faced the sky. Stars were starting to creep through the blue of the sky.
He played with my hair.
"So.. who's your new boyfriend" Josh asked sounding sad.

I sighed. " It's not like that" i said calmly.

"So then why did you back out of my kiss?" He asked.

"It's" I started. "Complicated. I think I like one of the guys but I don't know." I paused. "I just think about you too much. I can't start something"

"I understand" he said.
"You don't have too" I said

"But I do. I've liked you ever since I met you. You've been my best friend for five years now. And you didn't even know it but you helped me get over my sister. Maybe we're just meant to be friends." He said. "It's okay. Right when you left, I knew you would fall for someone else."

I flipped over and laid my hands and chin on his chest looking at his face. "I haven't fallen for someone else." I really thought about it. " I think"

"See? You think, your not sure. It's okay. I'll wait. We can get married when your sure. But I know I'm sure so I'll be waiting here for you when your sure." He smiled at me.
I smiled as I laid down on his chest.

I could hear his heart beat. I could feel his breathing. I could smell his cologne. I could sense his love. But did I love him?