OS #4: Claws of Dominance

21st Dominance

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Judging from how he's asking me this, he certainly heard me. Not just for a few seconds, but probably for a while.

"I... was..."

Sinulyapan ko siya. He's staring at me accusingly.

Why do I have to be in such situation? Hindi ko matanggap na para ba'ng ang laki ng kasalanan ko. Wala naman akong ginagawang masama.

Hindi na masyadong kabado ay umayos ako ng tayo at nahanap ang lakas ng loob na harapin siya.

"Okay, I was moaning. What's the big deal?"

He looked at me unbelievably and licked the sides of his lips. "It seems I am the only one who's making a big deal out of this," he said while laughing dryly.

Hindi ako umimik at pinatulan ang paninitig niya. I don't know why he is so mad about it.

"You are... moaning. Along with that buzzing thing, God knows what, in the middle of the night, up on a damn mountain, and inside your tent. Not thinking, others might hear it. Is that some kind of... norm, back in Spain?" He tilted his head with a sarcastic smile on his lips.

Napabuga ako. Talagang iniisip niyang ginagawa ko iyon!

"Okay, let me set this straight. I wasn't doing anything wrong. Not what you might be thinking of!" I gestured to him.

"What am I thinking then?"

Umirap ako. "Ano pa nga ba?"

He walked slowly, nearing me.

Hindi ko nakayanan ang intesidad ng tingin ay binaling ko ang pansin sa paa niyang kinakain ang distansya namin. Gusto ko mang umatras ay ayaw ko namang ipakitang naaapektuhan ako sa paglapit niya.

He lifted my chin up to meet his mocking gaze. The darkness of the night made it even more profound.

"You're getting shy now? Why? Were you not... satisfied?" he smirked with obvious irritation in his dark, cold eyes.

It's like my strength has immediately been stolen away, with the feeling as if my heart has suddenly dropped. Everything just feels heavy.

"Did I somewhat bother you? Were you almost there?"

It's all messed up. My emotions are going crazy, but what prevails the most is... the feeling of being humiliated.

Nanginig ang kalamnan ko. Tila parang naging tahimik ang mundo at ang boses niyang puno ng pang-uuyam na lang ang nanatili.

How... how can he ask these things? Is this what he thinks of me now? Talaga ba'ng ang laki ng epekto ng mga litratong iyon, kaya ang baba na ng tingin niya sa akin?

Akala ko ayos lang kapag siya, pero habang tinatanggap ang nga salitang iyon ay hindi ko pala kaya.

Kahit anong gawin o sabihin ko para ipakitang interesado ako sa kanya pero kapag konting kibot ko na hahantong papunta sa ideyang wild at isang flirt ako, ay agad mawawalan ng silbi dahil ganito ang tingin niya sa akin.

"Did you feel lonely? Is that why you went inside your tent?" He chuckled ruthlessly. "You should have told me. We could've set it a little bit farther for your privacy."

Mas naging buo ang galit at pagkabigo ko kasabay ng pait. Nawawala na ang kahihiyan. Bumilis ang paghinga ko dala na rin ng sobrang paninikip ng dibdib.

Parang dinudurog ang puso ko... dinudurog niya ako.

"Oh. Maybe Paul could've hel-"

His face turned to one side after I slapped him with all the strength that I had left, making him drop his hand from my chin.